people i have been good friends with,
for five or more years,
and i still can't find myself opening up.
no one knows my thoughts,
why i am who i am,
or how i view the world.
no one knows me truly,
i don't open up,
i don't talk about it.
if i do,
they look at me as if,
they had no idea i thought like this.
but i do,
it's all i ever think,
i never put a voice behind it.
so much happens in my life,
things that constantly have my mind spinning,
yet i don't talk to anyone.
i keep everything to myself,
i don't feel strong enough to share these things,
my friendships could fall apart.
i am very independent,
my problems are my own,
so i push them away when they are around.
do these people truly know me?
s.d.
