The Chance To Be With You [B1A4 Fanfiction]

Chapter 24: The Wonderfulness of Freedom

          Meeting Jinyoung was never a part of the plan. Actually, I had never planned on meeting anyone. Sure, maybe I was going to get married when I became an adult, maybe I would start a relationship with someone if there ever were someone, but it wasn't supposed to be then. It wasn't supposed to be when I was still trying to figure myself out, that just wasn't how it was supposed to go. I was supposed to have found myself first before finding someone else.

That doesn't mean that I wasn't happy with Jinyoung. I was probably happier than I had ever been. It was just that I was caught off guard with the relationship. It kind of scared me, really and in a way, it was turning me into someone that I didn't know I could be. Maybe, in all reality, I just wasn't really ready for a relationship.

"Hey, are you okay?" Jinyoung asked. He stopped packing his bag and looked at me with confusion in his eyes. "What? You don't want me to leave this place?"

"No," I said shaking my head and putting on my best smile. "I just...I don't know." I shrugged my shoulders and sat on the chair as I watched him finish packing. I had offered to help but he wouldn't let me, he said that he wanted to do it himself and that he didn't have much to take with him anyway.

"So," he finally said sitting down on the bed across from me. His tone was serious and I was kind of afraid about what would come next out of his mouth. "Minyoung, are you going to tell me what's really wrong? Are you sure you're fine because I don't think you are. You seem...kind of out of it today."

"Am I?" I wondered. I honestly didn't know. I did know that I felt a bit strange, I just didn't have a good enough reason for it. Maybe I was afraid of the outside world, about what the future would hold once we left the hospital. The two of us had only ever really had a relationship inside of the hospital, where the four walls surrounded us and kind of made us feel secure. We didn't really have any outside influence upon us, but once we leave, once Jinyoung is officially released, we'll be exposed to the world and who knows what's going to happen then.

"Hey, where's that mind taking you?" he wondered.

"I...I don't know," I finally admitted. "I just...what if we're not the same when we leave here? What if nothing will be the same for us?"

"Why won't it be?" Jinyoung asked getting off of the bed and making his way over to the arm of the chair. "What would make you think that we'd be any different?" I shrugged my shoulders. "See? You're unnecessarily worrying about things." He put his arm around me and pulled me close to him. "I promise you that nothing is going to change between us. It'll always be the two of us, you and me."

He gently kissed my forehead before getting up. "I know it won't," I slowly began, "I'm just worried."

Jinyoung made his way over to the bed and turned around to look at me. "Worried about what?"

"I just have this feeling," I said attempting to make light of the situation. I studied Jinyoung's face for a moment before brushing it off. "Maybe I'm just nervous about this whole you being released thing."

"I promise you, nothing is going to change," Jinyoung said coming back over and looking me straight into the eyes before quickly kissing me on the lips. "I love you, Minyoung."

"I love you, too," I sighed.

"Well, then let's finish up here so I can get out quicker."

The two of us continued to pack and Jinyoung made his last farewells to the hospital staff that took care of him so well over the course of who knows how many months. Just as we were finally exiting the front doors of the hospital, I received a text from Shinwoo asking how everything was going and informing me of the progress of the celebration.