Poems and thoughts (completed)

i hope he understands

I hope he understands that this is hard on me too. Him being so sad is truly killing me to watch. I wake up everyday hoping to see his smile. It truly makes everything better when I am sad. I had a bad morning so when I got to school after band I have a class with him where he sits in front of me. He ALWAYS has a big smile on his face and it warms my heart when I see it too. He didn't smile today. H e didn't make jokes or laugh like he always does. Then we were doing partner work an I was working with my best friend like always and he worked with his. I could hear them talking about his new ex girlfriend. He was saying that she was unhappy like he told me last night. Then his friend asked me who broke up with who when we dated the first two times. We only dated twice too. I said he broke up with me because I only thought he was talking about the first time we dated. Jeremy said that wasn't true because I broke up with him the second time. Then he said the reason why and I just got really sad. I never wanted to break up with him and he knows that! He dates girl after girl and doesn't see how it messes with me. He always asks me if I know anybody who he hasn't dated who likes him. EVERYTIME! I tell him no. Because I don't! I remember trying my hardest not to cry when I was doing my work. Then when I was done I didn't feel like talking and I went back to my seat and just kinda buried my head in my binder. A few tears slipped out and I was sniffling a lot. Nobody said a thing! Hm I feel SOOOO loved lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!