Poems and thoughts (completed)

before they wonder

my world is falling apart

life is meaningless

and that's just the start

my hearts so sore

I can feel it breaking

and I swear to god

it leaves me shaking

late at night

till' early I the morning

lying in bed

wide awake

didn't sleep last night

I just lie under the covers

with the tears streaming down my face

quick wipe away all the tears

before they come to close

must hide the depression

and the fear

for all they know

im happy

but deep down

my soul is dying

I can feel it rotting

it wants to scream

but I wont let it

not for the time being

I can never tell them how I feel

cause the happiness I wear to them

is real

for them to hear

I wish I were dead

it would kill them

they'd be filled with dread

so i'll try my best

to not be selfish

i'll keep my secret hidden

and just let them rest

but god I cant

take it much longer

i'll probably be dead

before they even wonder