Poems and thoughts (completed)

what happened?

saying goodbye to somebody you love is always so sad. Today I was thinking of the guy who crushed the fucking life outta me!!!! Then I realized... that guy has given me HELL but for some reason I cant get him out of my head. He is a jerk and I still like him. Why? Because when he wasn't a jerk before he made me feel special and I was head over heels! It all started in sixth grade on the first day of school. I saw him and he was FUCKING GORGEOUS!!!!!!! Then we started to talk. We became pretty good friends too!!!! Eventually it got to the point of us where we could tell each other just about anything!!! When me and my boyfriend broke up he was the shoulder I cried on along with my best friend Morgen. Oh this guy's name is Andrew! Then we were talking the day me and my boyfriend broke up the second time and he said all this sweet stuff! He called me cute and said that if I were standing next to him at that moment we would go into his house and watch horror films all night and I would be cowering next to him because he knows I get scared easily! Then we would snuggle and hug and hold hands and a bunch more! HE said all of that keep that in mind okay? So a few days later we were talking and I got up the nerve and asked him out. He said no.... because he doesn't like me like that. HOLD THE FUCK UP!! GO BACK UP AND READ EVERYTHING HE SAID AND TELL ME THAT DOES NOT SOUND LIKE HE LIKED ME! I just said alright and started to cry so I said I had to go. He said no because he wanted to keep talking to me so I stayed. My sister was talking to him and saying that he led me on and that I was freaking crying my eyes out because I was. So he asked me if I was okay and of course I said yes and he kept asking because apparently he didn't mean all that in a way of bf and gf! But seriously! I read all that off the messages! Weeks passed and her forgot about the conversation and I brushed it off and went on with everything I had to do. Then came summer and we didn't talk much but when we did it was like old friends and we were so happy to talk again! Then seventh grade came. Im in seventh grade now and have like 5 months left of it. My best friend Morgen moved away to a school a few hours away. He was the person I relied on to help me through all of this. Morgen and I have been friends since kindergarden and were like two peas in a pod! And when she moved it was hard on us. So I had basically nobody because me and my other friend Carly drifted. So Andrew and a few others were all I had. One night when Andrew and I were talking I asked him if he liked Morgen. He said NO FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME. And I said 'no dipshit as a friend' him: 'Oh then yeah! Why?' Me: 'Because she feels like nobody loves her' Him: 'GOD I AM SO TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT!' Then we argued for a while and then.... he blocked me, Morgen, and my sister. I was devastated! Now he wont look at me or talk to me or even glance my way. And when we lock eyes for a few seconds I see nothing at all. With me tears usually fill my eyes but his is a cold blank stare. I always wanted to be more than his friend you know? But I started to think. He has put my life through hell and it hasn't come back yet. So goodbye Andrew! Im done with you! And if you are possibly reading this.... what happened to best friends?