Poems and thoughts (completed)

My Life

Thought I should tell my story... So here it goes

I was born on November 8, 2000 In a hospital in Dayton, Ohio. I was a Happy and healthy baby girl! My full name is Lauren Elizabeth Lemmings. I grew up with a mom, a dad, a brother, and a sister. I was the most bubbly child and I rarely ever cried. I had a good life and everything I needed. By 5 I was the golden child! Quiet, kind, caring, funny, sweet everything. When I started pre-school my teacher adored me! In kindergarten I met my best friend Morgen! We were running opposite directions on the playground and ended up ramming into each other and when we walked to the nurse's office we talked and were instantly best friends! From then to now we have been stuck like glue! In first grade I had a little kid crush! His name was Payton! We were really close and become good friends! He moved in second grade. I was upset but after a day or two I got over it! In second grade I was a good student! I rarely talked during class and I was happy as can be! In third grade we started with real grades like A's B's C's and so on. I was a straight A student and always was all the way too the middle of Sixth grade year! Third grade was when I had another crush named Alex. It was also the year I started to get insecure because I realized I wasn't thin like the other girls in my class. I wasn't a stunning person either. I had a ton of friends though!!! Then came fourth grade! I started to get bullied in this year. I liked this kid named Jeremy and was over Alex because he became a JERK! So Jeremy and I were very close too! We talked a lot!! Also this year was the year where this kid named Jonathon sat next to me and would constantly pick on me, cheat off of my papers, make my life hell. He commented rudely on how I looked and how I acted and dressed. I hated him and I am not to fond of him now either. In fifth grade I was still a good student but I was quieter and dressed in baggier clothes so nobody could truly see how I looked. They weren't too baggy just enough that it wouldn't hug my skin. I only like that boy Jeremy and I still do up to today! We worked in the kitchen at school together and we were always laughing and had wars worth the serving spoons!! We were like best friends! Then on a field trip in January my friend Evie and his friend Myles started dating! Then when we were getting off the bus I was saying how cute of a couple they would be through the years! Myles said that he knows two more people who would be a cute couple soon too! I was suspisious. I sat next to Jeremy in class and I saw him writing a not saying will you go out with me check yes or no. He put it in his pocket. When I was walking down the hall out of lunch Myles handed me a note and said it was from Jeremy. It was the note I saw him writing and I said yes! Duh!!!! I was so happy my day went GREAT!!!! 10 months later we broke up. He dumped me for someone else and started to date her the same day. He dumped me in a note too. I was so sad! This is where the sadness starts. I was crying for weeks on end and not wanting to get out of bed to go to school or eat or anything. I hated my life and myself for thinking I was special. And I was still being bullied but more heavily now. I had friends but didn't want to talk to anybody and blocked everybody out and didn't talk. I stopped talking at home for a while and I hated being around anybody who would look at me. So I didn't come out of my room. Then months passed of being sad, trying to be perfect by not eating, cutting. He asked me out again and I made the mistake of saying yes. I was in love with a guy named Andrew too. He was one person who helped me through everything that happened. We dated for two or three months and I dumped him which made me so upset. Andrew sad sweet stuff and I have already sad them in another chapter on here. Then I asked him out he said he doesn't like me like that I was sad and devastated about losing Jeremy and not dating Andrew. I hated myself and felt so worthless and I was never good enough when I looked at myself ever. Then this year which is seventh grade. Bullied, best friend moved, drifted from my other friend Carly, cutting more, crying more, not talking to Andrew at all, having one or two true friends at school and I could go on forever. So I guess you could say im a troubled kid.............. Oh I have Anxietly, ADHD, Depression, a heart murmur so yeah.... that is my life so far........