does anyone know how I feel
feeling so alone
so empty
my eyes are blank
my smile is fake
you cant just read me
you just have to know me
the tears that escape me
as I remember all the things
that went wrong
or what it could have been like
on the outside I smile
on the inside I feel so dead
to the entire world
like im invisible
not worth knowing
useless and pointless
I lay awake hours on end
for someone else's stupidity
god
what am I to you
someone you can toy around with
I am done
I just want to disappear
and cry
like spurting blood
why is it I can bleed to death
but not cry to death
I am trying so hard
to gain control
over what was once mine
my life
I feel like I don't matter
I feel like I am better off dead
YOU ARE READING
Poems and thoughts (completed)
PoetryI did not write all of these, but some I did. This was my 2013 depressive stage, but don't worry, I'm living a good life now. Never lose hope. Needless to say these poems are very depressing and do have triggers in them, so read with caution. Mess...
