For the first time.

Eight

*lucy's pov*

I'd managed to drag my self to school this morning, i was excited to see James again yet nervous for some strange unknown reason. As I got in and started heading to my first class I saw james. My heart sank, not because it was just james, but because someone was in James's arms, not me. a girl, a blonde, skinny, pretty girl. I didn't know how to feel, I felt rage, despair, regret so many feelings it was un believable that someone could feel so much. They were there playing tonsil tennis lent up against the locker James hovering over her. I soon realised I was staring and was soon snapped back into reality by the blonde headed girl who decided to take a breath saying,

"Don't be jealous babe?" James then turned to face who she was addressing, me. I felt my eyes fill with unknown and unexpected tears and before I could embarrass myself with a answer I had yet to find, I ran, ran for the nearest exit, and kept running until I found myself in a park surrounded by trees, and wildlife but no faces were found these were my favourite kinds of places, places where I wouldn't have to explain my feelings to anyone who only cared because I was crying. I fell to the ground in a heap and stared at the grass watching the tears fall deep into the ground below me. I don't know why I felt so much heartbreak, we weren't together, we hadn't said we loved each other but we gave each other something which symbolised love, a kiss.