For the first time.

twentyeight -continued

I felt my cheeks change from a pale colour to a bright colour as he raised his head once more to ask for access I responded with another nod as he slowly began to rub his fingers against me. I let out a moan as he began to increase the speed against me as my kisses became sloppy against his lips, he whispered sweet words into my ears telling me about all the things he wished to do to me into the future while slipping a finger in and out of me slowly at first but then quickening the pace before adding another finger which nearly bought me over the edge." Go on baby." he whispered into my ear as i let out a final moan and released under his touch. He came up so we were lying down side by side, dragging the blanket to cover my body and his as he lent on his side to face me while my breathing continued to level its self out, " how was it?" he said looking at my as i turned to face him side on "it was good" i responded with a smile as he lent up to kiss me on the forhead i was expecting him to brake from the kiss but instead he held me there in his arms resting his head on the top of my head. 

I woke up in a panick sweating searching the room with my eyes hoping to find something, someone. It was dark and it was taking my eyes awhile to adjust to the surroundings but when they finally did i looked down to find that i was dressed in James's top and my bottoms then i looked back up to be greeeted by a panicked James looking at me with great concern, my dreams or should i say nightmares were becoming more regular and i knew that one day soon id have to tell him.  "Are you okay? I fell asleep on the sofa" I heard him say voice full of seep "Im Im fine." I stutted looking down into my lap "What was it about this time?" He said keeping his gaze upon me "It was the same as last time" I said getting up and heading out of my room only to be grabbed around the waist, turned and pinned up against the wall "What do you mean it was the same as last time? You never told me what it was last time." He said searching my eyes for answers "oh" I said tiliting my head to face the familiar ground "no, no, we need to disgust this" he said raing my head "okay but not now, tomorrow" "tomorrow? okay promise?" "promise" i said quietly in hope he wouldnt hear me. And with that he kissed me on the forhead and lead me back to bed with him, smothering his arms around me like he was afraid to loose me.

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notes 

sorry

sorry

sorry

itscrap

bye.