For the first time.

twentysix

*Lucys POV*

I wake up to a topless James, sleeping on my stomach arms securely wrapped around my waist eyes clasped shut, I begin to trace small circles on James's back, moving away stray pieces of hair falling down on his forehead and within seconds James's eyes flutter open, making me aware of my previous actions. I quickly move my hands away from his back and head and place them back down my sides, "why'd you stop?" James said in a deep voice, clearly full of sleep, I shrugged not really knowing why i stopped, he grasped his hands around my wrists and they were quickly placed in their previous positions. We layed there in silence, not awkward silence, the relxed comforting silence which i quite enjoy until James broke the silence "are you okay?" he says quietly, turning to face me better "i'm fine'" i respond not wanting him to know what was really happening in this messed up mind of mine. "I dont think your fine, you know i'm here for you and that you can talk to me." He says lying next to me and pulling me into him "yeah i know" i  state  quietly. Only now did i realise what i was wearing, as the blanket fell down my legs "James" i say quietly, in hope he wouldnt hear "yeah" "di..d, di..d you change me last night" i say stuttering, worried that he'd seen my legs "yes" he replied simply, I didnt know how to answer and i just really didnt want to answer, so we layed there again in silence, James pulled the blanket further down so we had nothing covering us and i quickly in attempt tried to cover my legs with the clingy top which smelt just like James with a hint of something else. James looked at me wide eyes, and i quickly looked away. The familiar feeling of James's hands grasped around my waist lifting me up and around his waist, making me straddle him, my arms resting on his shoulders, he looked down in between us to my now bare legs, as my top well his top, road up to my hips revealing not only my legs but my pants as well he looked back up me raising his eyebrow, I blushed from the embarrassment as he chuckled lightly, creating vibrations between both of our bodies, i began to chuckle lightly joining in with him. So he'd seen my legs, my story and didnt leave, "not yet" my inner self adds and i begin to look down in between us again at my legs, i feel his warm touch on my chin bringing our faces closer, he places a small kiss on my nose "i love you, no matter what, i want you to tell me your reasons, your story, but not now when your ready" he whispers scared that someone my hear my secret, i nod lightly and bring my face closer to his. He brings his lips to mine, but i pull away quickly still keeping our faces closer enough to taste eachothers breaths "i loveyou too" i say quietly, i didnt want to admit that i loved him because loving him ment falling for him and falling ment getting hurt and i wasnt ready for anymore hurt, but something inside of me changed my mind, James. I bought my hands up to his cheeks to pull his lips closer to mine, his Tongue began to slide through the barriers of my mouth and explore every bit of me, i missed the way he tasted, and i hoped that he was thinking exactly what i was thinking to, my hips began to rock against him, under his torturous movement in my mouth, releasing a small moan from his mouth.. I pushed him down slowly, keeping our lip attached. The moment of which his back touched the bed his hands which were previsouly of my waist began to explore the rest of my body, moving up and down the sides of me, on my waist and my bum, but as his hand got to my waist again the control in which i was in quickly changed, as he twisted us so now i was on the bottom while he hovered above me looking at my body and the top of which has road up to my belly "i do like you in my clothing" he said smiriking at me "why's that then?" i say knowing, exactly the reason but wanting to hear him say it "beceause i get to see more of you." He replies in a deeper voice then usual, connecting our lips back together.

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Notes:

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