For the first time.

twentyfive

*James's Pov*

The rest of that day was spent comforting Lucy as we watched countless numbers of movies. I looked down as the 4th movie finished, Lucy attached to my legs, eyes closed, breathing lightly, fast asleep, so beautiful. I scanned every inch of Lucy looking for fauts in which i couldnt find, tucking stray bits of her hair from her face creating a small smile imprinting on her face. I needed to detach myself from her in order to get ready for bed, harder done then said, I havent told Lucy that i had no where to stay and that I was staying the night but i'm sure she wont mind. I managed to crawl away from her and headed down stairs to get my bags from the car, I quickly got back upstairs and changed. I decided to change lucy too, quickly removing her top and placing my black top on her.I feel as if shes lost hope in me, lost what little love she had for me and now we are nothing but friends. But as i removed her top it took everything within me to not take advantage of this sleeping beauty, which may or may not be mine. I removed her leggings to reveal something of which i was not expecting, countless numbers of red lines from her mid thigh upwards to her hips. I did'nt really know what to expect but i didnt know that she had got that bad, i mean i would have thought she would have at least sent a text saying, "which you wouldnt have answered" the voice in my head chips in. I ignore the pain in me as i see how much pain she has been doing to her self and quickly pull the duvet over her as she lays there with her hair fanned out over the pillow. A few minutes later after locking the doors, and turning everything off leaving only the side lamp next to the bed on, i join Lucy in bed. I couldnt help but stare at this girl i was sharing a bed with, and questioning why she had to hurt herself. A few minutes of asking questions in my mind about the the oblivious girl infront of me, i decided to turn the light off and get some sleep.

"GET AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE" .."NO DONT".. "PLEASE" .."NO".. Im woken instantly from the screams that continue to leave the mouth of Lucy, I quickly turn on the light and turn to look at Lucy as she begins to scream once more, shes covered in sweat as countless number of tears stream out of her locked eyes, her hair sprawled across her face. I shake her gently, in hope to wake her "lucy, wake up its only a nightmare" i said hoping that was the only thing happening to the girl "lucy" i continue to say, raising my voice as i began to become more panicked. Her eyes flutter open,.

*Lucy's POV*

I open my eyes to James who looks, concerened and panicked. "Im okay" I say quietly to him. It was another one of those dreams, theyve been becoming more frequent "Lucy was it bad" he says just as quietly as i did, tucking my hair behind my ears and wiping my tears on my cheeks. "was what bad?" i say rolling over on my side to face him. "the dreams" he replies, searching my face for answers "i rather not speak about it" i say closing him off, "are you sure?" a flash of concern concealing his eyes "yes" i say shuffling closer to him as his arms wrap around me, resting his chin on top of my head " I was just worried" he says pushing me away to kiss my forhead then bringing me back close to his chest "Ive been worried, everyday you were gone" I say feeling a little mean of my rude and harsh statement. "lets not talk about this" he says, i dont reply i just lean over to turn the lamp off and kiss him on the forhead before snuggling to my previous possission "james" i say quietly, not sure if hes sleeping "yeah" he replies in a deep husky voice "do you love me?" I say unsure of the words leaving my mouth, he takes a few minutes to reply, as i gain more nervous of this simple question "Lucy.." He begins, but now i know what hes about to say, and i dont think im ready to hear what is about to leave his mouth "dont worry" I quickly say cutting his response off. "Lucy please let me finish" he says, i dont reply i just shake my head even though he cant see "I love you" I hear him say, Im so deep in sleep i dont proces what he says and end up falling back in to sleep, not understanding the words that just left his mouth.

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Notes:

I Had mocks at school this week and so didnt really update im sorry, might update tomorrrow as well just to make up for it. erm i didnt checking spellings and things because i just really wanted to publish it for you guys to read so hehe might have alot of mistakes... ANYWAY thanks for 2.4K ahhhhhh ahaha, but can we get to 3k before the end of the month?!!! hehe and please vote, comment, and read my much better other fanfic "tattoos and piercing" also i was thinking about doing a brad fanfic..but i dont know if many people would read it? so please let me know and maybe what kind of person you'd want brad to be (himself, punk, geek..etc) hehe so please comment and tell me!!!!xxxx