For the first time.

twenty

*Lucys pov*

I had been a week since, i erm gave my first handjob. Me and James were going strong, attending school, meeting up with friends and it had all been great, I was in my last lesson with Sam and I had realised i had been spending so much time with James that i'd completly forgot about sam and the science project and the fact the project was in for the following week "Sam did you want to catch up on this project this weekend?" I said packing up my things "yeah that would be great, we really do need a good catchup" "yeah" I said chuckling "so shall I come to yours at around 4 on saturday?" "Yeah sounds great, bye" I said heading out the door, and down the corridor to meet James in the carpark, I saw him waiting in the car just outside the main doors and quickly jumped into his car. He was unusually quite I mean I normally can't get a word in edge ways when we try and talk but today, today he was acting strange, I'm not gonna lie I was kinda worried. I put my hand on his lap to show my pressence when he just turned and stared at me deeply for a few seconds, "whats wrong James?" i said slowly rubbing my thumb on his cheek "I got to speak to you" was all he managed to say "shoot" i said a little nervous to what he was going to say "not here" He said pulling off.

That car ride was silent, really silent. We arrived at starbucks i was a little confused but i didnt dare ask James why we were there. He unbluckled and opened his door to get out, I didnt know what to do so i just stayed in the car while he went in. He quickly came back with 2 cups in either hand, i lent over to the otherside to open the door, he jumped in and handed me what i assumed was mine i took a sip caramel frappuccino, he knew me to well, "thanks" i said to him quitely "its fine" he put his cup in the middle of the car in the drinks holder and pulled off again i put my delicous concocktion in the middle to. "Jame where are we going?" i mutted so quitely i hope he hadnt heard, but the silence which loomed in the car he was sure to hear "the beach" he said just as quitely as me. 

*Just pulled up to the carpark next to the beach*

The whether had turned cloudy and a little chilly, if i knew we'd be coming to the beach i would have wore alot more clothing but nope i didnt know. James jumped out the car grabbing his coat from the back swinging it on and grabbing his drink from the drinks holder. I quickly jumped out grabbing my drink from the drinks holder as well and followed him to the boot where he was grabbing a couple of blankets, i pressume to sit on he put the blankets under one of his arms and held his drink in his hand while lacing his fingers with mine with the other hand. This is different, cute, yes, but very different, spontanious, most of all. We walked hand in hand on to the beach and sat down on the blankets he got. We layed there stairing into the clouds, James embraced me into a big hug to keep me warm, giving me his jacket as well. Still stairing at the clouds i began to spill all the thoughts going through my mind "James whats up? i know your acting strange, i mean i love your strangeness but what did you want to tell me?" i turning to face him prodding at his cheek. "Im moving" he muttered quietly. "Close?" i quickly added as i began to feel my heart pop out of my chest "London" he muttered so quitely in a act for me not to here, but it wasnt quite enough i heard it like sirens were ringing through out my body. WHAT? I mean if i didnt know better i would be having a melt down, the person i adored was leaving me, 3 hours away, i mean long relationships can work but we'd hardly see eachother with school and family and me not being able to drive, so many thoughts were going through my head i didnt know what to say or what to do. And then me, in my crazy state, in a act to gain oxygen in my lungs which were flooded with my emotions i ran into the ocean, fully clothed crying before id even hit the water. I was just floating in the water staring into the sky, yes it was freezing but i felt as if i couldnt feel anything so it didnt matter anyway. James quickly staggered in slowly adjusting to the tempurture and grasped me into his arms, carrying me out other his should "you'll catch a cold" he said shivering carrying me back to the car he placed me down into the seat  and kissed my forhead as he went back to get our belonging. For those split minutes we were apart i began to continue crying, crying so hard i felt as if i couldnt breath, id experienced this before,i mean id experience this alot before, before i moved here, these were the tears which i never wanted to feel again, they were the painful tears that felt like lava streaming down my face, each tear killing me a little bit more on the inside.

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Notes:

apoligise for spellings, and shizzle and not updating and im sorry okay AHHAHA i have a lot of coursework at the moment but ill update a few more times this week i expect. YAY I GOT 1K UNBELIEVABLE BUT YAYYYYYYY THANKSSSSSYOU!!!