Beside you 5sos (boyxboy) (Malum, Lashton)

Chapter 5: Nightmares

***Trigger warning. Thank you imaginary readers all 0 of you.  Again if you see something wrong in any of my chapters please tell me so I can fix it. This is another pretty short one but there are going to be some that are a little longer. Hope you like my story***

I look up at the ceiling, trying to fall asleep but my unfamiliar surroundings, the sound of my roommate snoring is forcing me to stay awake. I grab my phone turning it on to look at the time. 2:30. Fuck. "Go to sleep Luke," I tell myself as I try not to think about how I have to get up in 5 hours.

I settle back down into my bed and try to fall asleep again. "Don't think. Don't think. Don't think." I repeat in my head trying to tame my wild mind, but nothing works. After about another half an hour of tossing and turning, I give up and slip on my shoes. I quietly open the door squeezing through the door so the light wouldn't wake my sleeping roommate.

As I walk out into the brightly lit hallway I can hear someone crying. I glance over to a door a little bit down the hallway as walk toward it lightly. I press my ear against the door and the crying becomes louder. I raise my hand up to knock but stop myself before I do. My hand drops to my side and I move away from the door with a slight shake of my head.

I turn and head away from the door with the crying boy and step into the lift pushing the button for the first floor. "What are you thinking Luke? No one needs your help. Why would they?" I think to myself with a sigh. The door closes blocking out the soft whimpers.

"Come on Ashy," Michael says tiredly, extending his arms out to me as he sits on the floor to my right. I quickly fall into them burying my face into his chest letting the sobs escape my body. I clutch his shirt in my hand crumpling the fabric as my breathing speeds up even worse than it already has. The pain spreads to my lungs like a fire in the woods and the burning feeling seems to do nothing but increase.

That night the nightmares were unbearable as the past memories polluted my dreams. Nights like this I really wish there was a way to not feel the pain anymore. A way to escape from the hell that was my reality. I manage to calm myself down enough to be able to make sentences that are at least slightly legible.

"I-I-I'm s-sorry, Mikey." I stutter as I cry into his chest.

"No Ashton." He tells me quietly. "You have nothing to be sorry for. Do you wanna talk about it?" I slowly nod taking in a deep breath before I begin reciting my vivid dream.

I am sitting on my bed looking down at my phone waiting for it to be time to go to the bus. I wish time would go faster so I can hurry up and get out of there, but if I go to soon the cool air will have me freezing my arse off in seconds. I look down at my phone willing the time number to go up. I sigh and set my phone down next to me on the bed. That is when I hear the voice. It is deep and raspy from sleep. "What are you doing still here boy? Are trying to skip again?"

My eyes widen in fear as I realize what is about to happen. I quickly look down at my feet and whisper in a quiet voice. "No, sir."

"Don't you lie to me boy." He says with a snarl. He grabs my by my hair and drags me out into the living room. I squeeze my eyes in pain not wanting to give him the satisfaction of hearing me cry out. He throws me onto the floor roughly. "You will never be anything. You will always be nothing. You won't be any better than the gum on the bottom of my shoe."

That is the part where I wake up covered in sweat having a full blown panic attack.

Mikey rubs my shoulder softly. "You know none of that is true right? Look at where you are right now. You are at college getting ready to make something of yourself." He says with a quiet voice.

"I know Mikey," I whisper choking back a sob.