Beside you 5sos (boyxboy) (Malum, Lashton)

Chapter 19- Coming out

***See I told you I would have a time lapse. I don't want them to say love yet because it's been like 2 week since they first meet each other. Idk everything feels like it's moving too fast for the time that was spent. Peace out my imaginary readers. Please dont hate me.***

"Hey, Mikey," Calum says as he walks toward me. We are going to dinner today. It's been about a week since the whole Luke incident. He is getting better somewhat. Ashton and I have made up. Everything just seemed so perfect right now.

There is a restaurant just outside of campus and I find myself wondering if this is a date again. I grab him a hand as he pulls me toward the bus station. I get on and pay as Calum does the same. We walk to the back of the bus and take our seats.He puts his arm around me and I snuggle into his side.

He quickly pulls away from me and scoots to the seat next to the one he was sitting in when he sees his friend get on as well. I frown but don't say anything. He looks at me with an apologetic look and turns back to his friend. They sat and talked. When it was their stop I get off and wait for Calum to get off as well as I heard him saying goodbye. He got off on the opposite side of me and waited for the bus to turn the corner before walking over to him.

"I'm sorry babe." He told me. "That was a close one." He said as he wrapped an arm around me. I let him do it but I'm still a little angry. We walk to the restaurant and get seated in a both. I sit there staring at the menu.

"What's wrong babe?" He asks as he goes to hold my hand, but I snatch it away. "Is it about what happened on the bus?"

"Yes, and no," I tell him and he bites the inside of his cheek.

"Can you explain it to me, babe?" He asks me quietly.

I sigh. " I feel like I don't deserve you. Your this beautiful creature and I'm over here as Michael. Just Michael. I feel like you're too good for me. When you scooted away from me it made me feel like you were ashamed of me. Like you don't want to be with me. I know, I get it. You aren't ready to come out. But it just makes me feel so worthless. The way you talk about your girlfriend, and when you kiss her. I hate it. I hate it because I have feelings for you and I can't show or tell anybody. It is slowly killing me inside." I tell him as I start to cry.

He moves over to me and pulls me into a hug. "I didn't know you felt this way, Mikey. I have feelings for you too. If I have to come out to show you that I do, then I am okay with that." He tells me.

"Really?" I ask looking up at him with hopeful eyes.

"Yes. In fact..." He pulls out his phone and types something. "I just broke up with my girlfriend." He tells me with a smile. I look up at him with disbelief. "Michael Gordon Clifford, would you do me the honor of officially being my boyfriend?" He asks me. I can't find words so I just nod. I nod so hard it was as though my life depended on it. In a way it actually did. Calum was his life now. He didn't want to let that go.