Falling inlove in Mystic falls (Part 2, Sequel)

The good and the bad

Stefan and I walked down a trail that lead to the highschool's football field, It was quiet between him and I. I wasn't sure if it was because of the tension, Or what had happened. I stopped in my tracks, Stefan stopping a few inches infront of me then spinning around so he was facing me. ''I know you're wanting to talk, And believe me so do i.. But we can't just keep beating around the bush.'' I said in all honesty.. It was a hard topic to talk about especially the fact that I now realized everybody would get hurt. Stefan tilted his head, Nodding it slowly with that brooding look of his. ''We can't keep hiding this.'' Stefan sighed, More so to himself. I nodded in agreement, They'd find out eventually ''But I also can't keep lying.'' Stefan spoke softly, His eyes meeting mine. Lying about what? I was way past confused at this point. ''I like you.'' Stefan admitted in a rather cute tone. ''You barely know me.'' I argued, Stefan let a low chuckle escape his light red lips. I shook the jet black hair out of my face, putting a hand on my hip. ''When I met Elena she was broken.'' Stefan started, We continued walking down the path. ''She had just lost her parents and her whole world was falling apart.'' Stefan admitted, Why was he telling me this? Stefan laughed ''I thought I could save her.'' He said, Sounding so sure of himself. ''And I did save her, Many times.. But not in the way that I had hoped.'' Stefans voice was fragile as he spoke, We finally got to the football field and sat down on the bleachers side by side. ''I dragged her down a lot, Then one day I realized she didn't need saving. That's the day I realized..'' He started then took a deep breathe, Looking over at me ''That it was Katherine I wanted to save all along, Not Elena. I was living my life with Katherine through Elena, And I can't do that anymore.'' He was honest and I admired that, But I still didn't get where this was going and I think he noticed by my expression. ''I was trying to fix Elena, with out even noticing she was changing on her own.'' I nodded, Understanding what he meant by that. ''I spent centurys trying to forget Katherine, Now I'm past that.'' Uh oh, I thought to myself. Is he saying what I think he is? ''When I met you, you were a new person and not a reminder of my past. You don't need saving because you're strong enough to save yourself.'' He praised me, Oh god please no. ''Stefan..'' I started, Scrambling to find the words that darted around in my head. ''I know I'm different, But there's a lot about me you don't know. I can't be with someone like you.'' I spoke slowly, Trying to be as kind as I could. Stefans head fell slowly, As he played with his ring. ''You mean, Someone thats not my brother.'' He said in disbelief. I shook my head ''I don't deserve you.'' I admitted to him, He looked at me confused.. I'm guessing he wanted to know why.. But I'm sure he would soon find out.

I opened the cellar door, Steve standing against the wall his short dirty blonde hair all over the place.. He looked like hell. I knew Damon and Stefan would hear the conversation with my ex, But at this point.. I didn't really care. ''So are you going to give me some answers, Or not?'' Steve questioned me, I looked at him appalled ''Me? Give you answers?!'' I argued, Oh here we go. ''Yes, You know the whole par of you moving to Mystic falls.. Dating a salvatore.'' Steve pushed my buttons, I tried to let it go but I knew this was going to turn into a fight. ''What about you huh?'' I questioned, outraged. ''You dying, Disappearing. All the shit you put me threw.'' I spat at him, Steve came closer with the look in his eyes he got when he was purely angered. ''Don't even pull that, You make me out to be this monster and what about you and all the things you did.'' He gritted his teeth, Rage flew through both of us.. Just like old times. I took a deep breathe, Trying not to snap. ''At least I didn't kill myself.'' I said coldly, Hoping that would end the fight. Steve balled his hands into fists, Then his fist collided with the wall behind me all the while still staring me in the eyes ''I KILLED MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU.'' He screamed at me. Shock took my face, I panicked. What? What did I ever do? I couldn't be here. I quickly shut the cellar door and left the house threw the back patio door.

I went back to my house quickly, I wasn't in the best mood, With my ex now hanging out in Damon's cellar, Stefans confession and Damon and I not being completley okay yet.. I was sad. Caroline had texted me on the walk home, Telling me she had my gown for graduation and that if I didn't show she would hunt me down. She needed a place to throw an after party so I suggested my barn and backyard - She was thrilled and now she's coming to decorate before graduation.Someone should of warned me how much of a perfection queen she was.

I walked up the stairs as normal, Noticing my dad and Jesse still weren't home. My dad had texted me earlier this morning, Telling me he'd be here for my graduation along with my siblings and close relatives and we'd be having a family celebration after the ceremony.. Just enough time for Caroline to get everything decorated before the guests would arrive. But unfortunetly my dad told me he had to go back to Canada after that, And he didn't know for how long this time.

I got changed into flannel pj pants and a white tank top, I went on my laptop and played some music.. Turning up the speakers rather loud so no one could hear me though - I'm sure they'd hear my music.I sat on the edge of my bed with crossed legs as I sang along ''I'm breaking free from these memories.. Gotta let it go, just let it go'' I sat there and let it all out, I bawled.. This was too much.. This pain hurt so damn bad.

I went into my closet, Pulling out a box that held all my picture albums. I pulled out the album I had dedicated to Steve and I, Flipping through the pictures as the memories came back to life. It all just made me cry harder.

I heard a loud knock arrive at my front door, I quickly wiped my tears and flashed down stairs. I took a deep breathe - Trying to collect myself then I opened my front door. There Damon stood, Looking at me helplessly. He quickly wrapped his arms around me, I really needed this hug. ''Come on.'' He said softly.. Being sensitive.

We went upstairs to my bedroom and sat down on my bed, How did I get here? I thought to myself - Pained by all the hurt that was taking place inside of me. Damon picked up my photo album ''This isn't going to help you feel better.'' He said in an obvious tone, I laughed.. Yeah it was a stupid idea to get it out. Damon put the album on my night table and wrapped his arm around me, As we laid there in my bed cuddling eachother.seeing Steve was like hearing an old song come on the radio,bringing up so many old feelings and memories that you can’t tune them out.

''Did you want something to eat?'' Damon questioned me, I laughed ''Are you offering?'' I teased him - Remembering when he had said the same thing to me. Damon crinkled his nose as we both got up to go to the kitchen, Damon stopped in his tracks and looked down at the floor ''Whats that?'' his tone seemed angry, I looked at him confused ''What's what?'' I questioned - the confusion showing in my tone. He picked up the shirt that had must of been laying there for many days, But somehow I had forgotten about it. Damon threw the shirt on the bed and stormed out, Giving me a disappointed look.. Realizing he had just witnessed Stefan's shirt in my bedroom.