Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes)

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Music:
Mercy / In Your Atmosphere- John Mayer and Shawn Mendes

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I looked straight at Shawn and then back at Mr Jacobs. "No way!"
"Jazz I extremely advise you take this opportunity and let Shawn mentor you."
There was a pause. I looked back over at Shawn and he smirked.
I rolled my eyes.
He put on his serious voice. "If you don't accept Shawn's help I'll have to contact your parents."
"What!" I snapped.
"Well you're refusing the help we're offering you so I'm going to have to arrange a meeting with your parents to discuss-"
I cut him off. "Okay, Shawn can help me but please don't tell my parents." I can't let them find out I need extra help.
"I must see an improvement in your work or I will have to contact them." He gathered all his belongings in his arms.
"Okay." I said quietly and after Mr Jacobs left the room.
I gathered my stuff and walked towards the door.
I could hear Shawn walk behind me. I grabbed the handle and opened the door. Shawn leant over me and shut the door before I could walk out.
"Still not talking to me?"
I sighed. "Open the door Shawn."
"No."
"Open the door!" I tried to open the door again but he was pushing on it too hard I couldn't.
"What's your problem?" I shouted.
He raised his voice "What's my problem? I should be asking you that, you're the one who's mad at me."
I ignored him and knocked on the window of the door loudly hoping that someone would hear and open the door so I could get out.
A few moments later Sid came.
I smiled. "Hey Sid! Open the door."
"Not until you two sort things out." She got a key out of her pocket and  locked the door.
I pulled my eyebrows together in confusion. "Where the hell did you get that?"
"Mr Jacobs gave it to me, I'll see you two at the end of lunch." She smirked and walked off.
Great.
I sighed again and dumped my bag on one of the tables.
Shawn stayed where he was. "Do you want to talk?"
"Nope." I sat on the table and pulled out a chair from underneath it to rest my feet on.
There was a long pause.
"Jazz, I'm sorry about what happened at the beach." He came and sat next to me.
I ignored him and stared out of the window.
"What happened to you? Why did you freak out?"
I kept my eyes on the window and didn't speak.
"How am I supposed to mentor you if you won't talk to me?"
My eyes started to water.
"Just tell me what happened?"
"You embarrassed me!" I snapped "That's what happened!" I looked straight at him, tears began to fall down my cheeks.
I quickly wiped them.
"I don't understand?" He paused.
I took a deep breath in. "You wanna know the truth?"
"Yes" there was something about his voice that made me trust him.
"When I was 13 me and my parents went to the beach for a day with some family friends. We spent the whole day going in and out of the sea. It was my favourite thing to do, I loved swimming. I was top in my swimming class and my teacher even said I may be able to compete in competitions. But when I was in the water the ground beneath my feet suddenly dropped and I was sucked feet first under the ‪water by the current. I was able to swim back up to the surface of the water but there was no ground for my feet to stand on and every time I tried to swim to the shore the current pulled me back. I kept getting sucked under the water and then when I got my head above the water I was dragged back in again. I don't remember how but I hit my head on some rocks and the next thing I remembered was waking up in a hospital bed. Apparently my mum's friend saw me and lifted me out" I could feel some tears begin to form in my eyes. "If it wasn't for her, I would be dead." He didn't say anything. "Every now and then I get flashbacks of what I saw when my head came above the water, it's horrible" My voice broke. "I remember trying to shout for my dad but I couldn't get any words out, I just ended up swallowing water." I looked at Shawn and he was shocked. "I don't know what happened at the party but my body just went into a panic."
I couldn't hold my tears back any longer so I quickly covered my mouth and put my head down. ‬
Shawn pulled me in for a hug‬ . "I'm so sorry Jazz, if I knew I would never of forced you to go in."
I let out all the emotions I had been feeling over the past week leaving a wet mark of Shawn's shoulder. ‬
Our hug broke but he kept his hand of my back and rubbed it gently as I calmed myself down. ‬
‪"Have you been in water since?"‬ he asked.
I wiped my nose. "No."
He moved his hand off my back and placed it on the table. He paused for a second to process all the information I told him. "Wait, at Sid's you went in her pool?"‬
I chuckled. "I can go in pools, it took me a while but I got there." I kept my head down.
‪"Have you tried to get back in the sea?"‬
‪"Yeah but every time I either chicken out or have a panic attack."‬
There was another pause. ‬
‪"What are you doing Saturday?"‬ he asked out of the blue.
‪"I don't think I can handle another party Shawn!"‬
He laughed. "Not a party, what time are you free?"‬
‪"It's fine:" ‬
‪"No it's not, I was a dick, let me make it up to you?"‬
‪"2." I smiled. ‬
‪"Okay, I'll pick you up at 2."
We talked until Sid came back. ‬
She unlocked the door. "Have you two sorted things out?" ‬
We both looked at each other and smiled. "Yeah." ‬
Shawn walked out leaving me and Sid in the classroom. ‬
‪"So what happened?"‬ She had a rush of excitement.
‪"Nothing, I just told him what I told you."
She came and sat next to me. "What did he say?"‬ 
‪"He understood and apologised"‬ I gave her a small smile.
‪"So you're talking again?"‬ She asked.
I nodded and after the bell rang so we both headed out of the classroom to our next lesson. ‬