Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes)

twenty eight

Syd paused the film. "What are you gunna do?"
I sat up. "I have no idea."
We both paused for a moment. "Did you have any idea this bet was happening?" I asked.
"No and I would've told you straight away if I did." She replied.
We watched the rest of the film then went to sleep. As much as I tried I couldn't sleep, I kept seeing those text messages and Shawn's face when he found out I saw them. Syd had to leave early in the morning to go to work so I was awake earlier than usual. I had nothing to do but sitting at home left me alone with my thoughts. I had so many questions that could only be answered one way. I knocked on the front door of Shawn's house preparing myself for the worst but Karen answered.
"Hi Karen, is Shawn in?" I asked in a soft voice so she wouldn't know anything was wrong.
"He's upstairs." She opened the door wider. "Come in."
I walked in trying to go through exactly what I'm going to say to Shawn in my head. She walked into the kitchen and shouted back to me. "Would you like a drink?"
"No thank you, I'll only be a few minutes."
She walked back out. "Okay, well he's upstairs, he's probably not awake yet so don't bother knocking he needs to get up."
I laughed. "Okay, thank you."
I walked upstairs and opened his door. After seeing what was on the other side I wish I knocked. I opened the door and saw Lyndsey straddling Shawn on his bed. They were both naked, her arms were wrapped around his neck and his hands were resting on her bum as they kissed each other. As soon as I locked eyes with them I panicked and ran straight back out closing the door behind me. I ran down the stairs and out the door as fast as I could.
"Jazz." Shawn shouted whilst frantically trying to put his t-shirt on behind me.
"What!" I snapped as I turned to face him.
He raised his voice. "What the fuck, you can't just storm into my room like that?"
I scoffed. "Your mum told me to." I tried to walk off but he stopped me.
"Can we talk?"
I stopped and turned back around, I was no longer upset just angry. "The last thing I want to do right now is talk to you."
"You came looking for me?"
I raised my voice again. "Don't flatter yourself! I didn't come here to throw myself on you like the whore you've got in your room."
"Don't speak about her like that."
I was speechless.
He took a deep breath. "Can we just talk?"
"Just tell me. What was the bet?"
He sighed. "The bet was who can sleep with the new girl first."
"You're disgusting."
He didn't say anything.
"Between who? You and Jake?"
"Me, Jake and Dan."
I let out an uncomfortable laugh. "They both have girlfriends."
"They bowed out before they got with Syd and Char."
"What do you win?"
"That doesn't matter." He tried to move closer to me.
I pushed him away. "Its a bet, you've got to win something, what do you win?"
"I don't win anything." I'd rather him say he wins something, then this whole situation would make sense. I didn't know what to say, this is all too much.
He cut in. "Say something."
I ran my fingers through my hair trying to stop myself from crying. "Why?"
"Why what?"
My voice broke. "Why did you kiss her? Out of all the girls, why her?"
"We have history, I was upset."
I cut him off. "You were upset!"
"Yes."
"I can't listen to you anymore." I tried to walk away but he grabbed my waist.
"We can sort this out."
I quickly grabbed his arms and tried to push him away. "No we can't."
He lowered his head and leant in to kiss me but I stopped him by giving him one hard slap across the face.
"Don't." I walked off and he let me go.

***

I needed to clear my head the only way I knew how to. When I got home I put on my running clothes and pressed shuffle on my iPod. I ran the whole length of the beach and sat on the shore for a short break. I let my music play as I watched the waves crash against the sand. I was almost lost in my music and thoughts until someone approached me. "How are you feeling after walking in on me and Shawn earlier?"
"Why do you care?"
"I don't." She snapped. "You know you're lucky, you saw us at the right moment, we were only doing half of what we did last night." It was clear that she was trying to make me jealous and I hate to admit but it was working.
"Did you come here to say something or just gloat?"
She crossed her arms. "Stay away from Shawn, last time you tried to come between us we were just sleeping with eachother, this time we're together."
My heart sank. "What?"
"He asked me to be his girlfriend again last night and I said yes."
I couldn't show her I was upset so I just responded with the first thing that came into my head. "Congratulations."
She looked at me confused.
"I'm happy for you both."
She took a threatening step forward. "If you try and worm your way into our relationship again I'll do everything in my power to make your life a living hell."
I didn't say a thing and she laughed as she walked away. I stuck my earphones back in and pressed play once more. I came out to clear my head but it's more of a mess now than before.