The Alpha's Ballad

Chapter 22

Wantworth Miller as Dante Silver

(Song by Backstreet Boys - Drowning)

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Dante POV

I still can't get my head around it all, I have two mates and pups how could that be without me knowing anything, yet I understand why he didn't tell me I rejected him and I guess in his eyes I rejected my pups too. How could I have gotten so lucky I have been a player from the moment I know what pu*sy was and I had s*x when ever I could which was a lot.
Yet I have a mate as great as Nathaniel who is so giving and never wanted anything back, that's a Luna even before knowing he was my mate it was like he know he had to care for other before himself and now I have another mate who I don't know yet but I can tell from how he took on someone else's pups he will make the best kind of alpha and protect his pack and those he loves, which is how an alpha should be, which I'm am not I put myself before Nathaniel not caring who I hurt along the way just as long as I got what I wanted.

Only after he was gone did it hit me how much of a Bas*ard I had been to him, using him for s*x then once I found out who he was throwing him away like yesterday's trash, yet still he wants me for his mate. I now understand why the others hated me after I told them my name because then know how I was before but no longer all I want now is my mates and pups.

After seeing the moon goddess herself made me realise what I had but because of how I was I missed out on a year of my pups life, their first word, their first step, the first time they looked at you, holding them that first time after they were born, all their firsts I missed them all, do they call Xander dad. As I'm thinking all this I realised just how stupid I was for letting him go.

"Hey babe what you thinking." (Xander)

"Nothing much at all apart from everything I missed out on with the pups and how they see you as their dad not me."

"They don't call me dad, they call me pada, I think they know they are not of my blood so I don't think I will ever be dada, daddy, dad to them but I will still be but not like I will the others." (Xander)

"What do they call Nathaniel is it papa or something else?"

"They call me mama cause to them that's who I am, I will never be papa just mama."

"Do you mind that?"

"No not at all I carried them inside me give birth to them so I'm their mum nothing else."

I can't believe they were inside my mate, him feeling them grow inside, feeling them move, kick, it must be magical to feel that, knowing you have a life growing inside you. I would love to feel that but I won't and nor will Xander. Which I don't understand why only him.

'Because he was blessed with two mates from the moment he was conceived unlike you and Xander, you were only meant to have one mate not two. So your body wasn't made to carry pups of three bloodlines just two like every other he-wolf just like Xander was. I know it's hard knowing you can't have your mates pups and if you did have them they wouldn't be gifted like the pups you three will have when Nate carries them. Your pups if you had them would be normal but still special in their own way just like all pups are.'

'So we could have pups if we wanted them but they will never be of mine, Xander, or Nate blood, they will just be of mine and who ever out of my two mates fathered them.'