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(Trust) Join me to disappear

I'm sorry for being this weak

I can't offer you the counter blow

At least not the one you seek

It has all gone up my nose OH

I am high but still so meek

And in light of the situation now

I'll be terminating me

If you can't beat them don't try

When you've already won

I'll be laying down tonight

To wake realising you're gone

And it's only myself at my side

Though don't cry I won't cry

Taking another drink to life

And again I'll fuck up right

Rolling my joints in pain alight

Drowning my sorrows and going up in smoke

No longer winning because I've quit the fight

Put up your dukes and I'll joke just smile

I can go down to get up and walk away

I have nothing to make me want to stay

Yet I have everything

And what does it mean if I can't give it away

Upon me death it will get taken from me

Don't hold me back from being angry with me

The last years of my life are to be gone and bloody

Trust me if you don't trust me

To trust you to keep me from trusting me

What is trust anyway

A payment upon death to the state

My trust has long been buried

Missing I am trusting it will remain

Yes believe me or leave me

To trust in my demise

Only littered skies

Trust in GOD yeah to fuck me

And when all love is lost I'll be back to bleed

Killing love is lust OH baby

Earthly desires blown to greed

Well then just blow me

Away returning to pay homage to mead

Yeah I'm turning back blinded by whiskey

I am falling apart

And I don't even care

This is only an art

Trust you'll join me to disappear