New poetry book or...

Say thank you mom

I am sure I am unsure now

Believe me baby I'll find my way

I understand this that complicates

The confusion that incapacitates

That is why I said you must wait

Reason being if I'm early we'll be late

You can still trust in me

If not accepted history will again repeat

And believe me it could turn out bloody

It would not be my first time

Though I am always ready for my final night

Because I won't forgive me if I can't at least die trying 

Don't you dare ask me what Jesus would do

Forgive me but by now you should have a clue

Until then mom my blood may boil

Uncertainty is certain in my line of work

Thankfully I'll be retired or will I be retarded

Who knows yet but I'm finding out

Without her to calm my nerves toil

Whatever I set this time aside to either love or die

And I'm fine with it either fucking way

Sorry for the cursing but I hope this be the last time

You take her social platforms away

Hopefully she don't need to find comfort in me again

On account of what you're doing

With the words I say yeah I'll see you on that day

I hope by then you'll have answers for me

And until then I say thanks for trying 

Yeah dagnabit I will be there yet

And this is not a joke Eh

The love for your daughter keeps me

She keeps me from burning

I'll be there to stay there one way or another

All I can say is thank you mother

For now not knowing all you've done

You raised a precious one even if drunken

I can only say thank you mom

For the opportunity and love

Thank your mother say thank you mom