Consumed by Love

"I've been fighting all my life"

<Toby>
I love her, I love her more than anything I only wish she could see just how much. I didn't make a move on my work colleague that kissed me I've never even thought about it. I've never and I won't ever think about kissing another woman besides Spencer. But she doesn't want me anymore I broke heart and there's nothing anyone can do or say.
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I've been staying at a hotel for the last couple of days considering I'm not able to go home to be with my girlfriend. As I continue to walk towards my truck holding my coffee in my hand I see Spencer across the road. Staring at me intensely God it's been hell these last few day's without her. She walks away avoiding eye contact and I oblige not wanting to make her anymore upset.
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<Spencer>
I walk into my house closing the front door behind me only to see my mum standing in the hall way "My darling girl come here" She opens her arms for me and I'm quick to rush into them as she holds me tight. "It's okay Spencer it's going to be okay you guys will get through this" I shake my head biting my lip but I can't stop the tears falling down my cheeks "Make it stop mum make the pain go away" I beg her she runs her hands down my back soothingly "I know it hurts Spencer I know it hurts"

It hurts it hurts so badly, I miss him and I hate that I miss him.

"You're strong Darling I know that you're going to get through this no matter what you decide" She says pulling away cupping my cheek "I love you" I smile "I love you too mum" She brings me down onto the lounge to sit with him "You know when we found out that we where having twins we we're so happy. Honestly Toby looked like the happiest man alive and yet 1 hour later I find out he's kissed another woman" Mum grips my hand rubbing my knuckles "I need him mum I can't do this without him" She reaches up with her other hand wiping away my tears "I know it's hard but you've gotta keep fighting" I shake my head frowning "I've been fighting all my life" She nods smiling "I know that's because you're my brace girl who's never given up" I wipe my eyes taking a deep breath "What do you think I should do?" Mum stays quiet for a moment thinking before answering me "Honestly it sounds like he was forced into it and Aria was looking at the wrong moment" I nod resting my head in my hands "I need more time" I mumble Mum rubs my back soothingly "You take all the time you need I've gotta get going anyway" Mum kisses my forehead telling me she loves me before leaving me here alone.
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<Toby>
I turn to my side letting Veronica walk into the Hotel room as I close the door behind me I turn facing her. "If you've came here to yell at me can you do it tomorrow?" I ask her sipping my bear sitting down on the sofa "Did you cheat on my daughter?" Veronica asks looking at me with a stern look "No Veronica I would never ever cheat on Spencer my work colleague came onto me" She sighs sitting down across from me "My daughter's are the most important people in my life and when I see them upset it makes me upset. You guys are having twins and she is going to need you" Tears stroll down my cheeks as I listen "I love her" I say looking at the ground "I-I know that I'm not the best thing for you I know she deserves better but I just can't let her go" Veronica nods thoroughly "If that is the way you feel then you need to tell Spencer that before anything else happens" I nod sipping my bear "I've had too many bears I'll go and see her tomorrow morning first thing" She nods walking to the front door "She's a strong girl Toby. She always has been but all she's ever wanted was you" I know that, All I've ever wanted was her.