random nothing's

think im lost without...

sheltered kids looking at me
like i'm some dalai lama
calling me their religious leader
when they want a rebellious leader
but who the hell am i?
what have i done?
i'm neither here nor there
l want life just as badly as you do
never had i read a truer
sentence than Fitzgerald wrote
"i am within and without"
within, without
two sides like the moon
don't have a clue
i feel so doomed
to a life i never wanted
didn't get my affirmation
now i live life in rations
shit is fucked everywhere