The vampires tutor

Lesson 15.

JANE'S POV

His strong hand runs along my spine as I lay on the bed under the thin white sheets, the smell of poppies drift through the open windows in the cottage and the far off sound of the villagers and sheep echo up the hills.

But it's not just the sounds of the village that I hear, I can hear the heartbeats of the people, of the animals, I can just imagine the feeling of their pulse racing as my fangs break through their skin and feeling their blood rush around my fangs.

"You are thirsty again." His voice rumbles a crossed my skin like thunder in a storm.

I turn my head on the pillow and look at my sexy mate. His skin is tanned by the long hours spent in the vineyards of the winery, his 5 o'clock shadow making his sharp jawline stand out and his thick black hair make his ivory green eyes pierce any woman's heart.

"I don't mean to be." I purr, trailing my hand down his muscled arm.

"Oh you are sly my beauty; but you know that you must control yourself."

"But that is no fun." I pout and roll myself up in all the sheet, then getting off the bed leaving him to lay there bare and defenseless.

"Babies are no fun. We still have so much living to do love." He remarks back as I walk to the bathroom.

I stop mid step and feel my heart tighten.

I've always wanted children, ever sense I was little. I'll never say it a loud, but I wanted children more than I wanted to find my mate; to hear them call me mother and to look to me for love and protection.

"Beauty?" His strong arms wrap around my waist and he holds me, he makes me feel safe. As though nothing will ever ruin this picture.

NOW A DAYS___

I open my eyes from my bittersweet memory and lean back in my chair, my journal open to a time when things where simple....well more simple than now a days. The world has changed so much sense back then, the past almost completely forgotten with the new and bright ideas of the future.

The names of all those who I met and be-friended are long forgotten by everyone but me, my lovers name isn't in anyone's minds but mine and what he looks like will forever be painted on my eyelids for only me to see.

I reach up and wipe a tear from my eye as I remember his bright smile, even that image tainted by the last facial expression he ever made, I never thought I'd see that expression come from him... not from him and me being the cause.

It was me who made him make it. I regret it, truly I do; but put back in that situation I don't see myself making a different choice. I guess I lack that sense of being human after all these years, the sense to regret, to pity, to feel guilt even when I have done something wrong.

"That is a sour face."

I look up from my desk and see Elex leaning against he door frame of my office.

"What brings you home from school?"

"Don't give me that mother act. You know how things work." He almost growls at me and I lower my head slightly.

"No need to bare your fangs at me Elex, I haven't lost my mind yet."

"Yet." He spits.

You might be wondering why Elex shows me such hostel behavior; but I deserve it. After what happened in the past, I lost my right mind, I killed everything that moved. The town was turned to ashes, it was nothing more than a rumor of a place where pretty much anyone traveling in the direction of the town was warned to turn around, for a monster lived there.

A monster so beautiful that it would lure men in by the hand full and nothing but bones would remain of them.

For centuries, many lost their lives to me and I didn't look back at the pile of bones that became my throne in a lonely hill top cottage that many called the queen of deaths layer.

"He is back."

My head snaps back to Elex and he takes a seat in front of me.

"That can't be-"

"Oh it's true, I saw him with my own eyes. He already knows where Ronnie is and he doesn't seem to want to play games this time."

"Where?"

"The school, he is in the role of a janitor." He runs a frustrated hand through his hair and stands now, pacing the wood floors.

"You know that this family will do all that we can to help you protect your mate Elex."

Elex gives me a questioning look, one with a hint of disgust. "How can you say that?"

I look down at my hands and feel the sense of being back in that moment again, his blood on my hands. The sticky, hot liquid making my throat dry. That moment was a rush of adrenaline and a thousand heartbreaks, it was everything that my life now is centered around and I wouldn't change that for the world.

I swallow the lump in my throat, sense that day; no matter what blood I drink, no matter how much blood I drink. I am still thirsty, my throat always craving something to make the sand like texture to subside.

Even just for a moment.

"I live with my own punishment for what I did to him Elex, everyday I live with what I did to my perfect, handsome, wise mate." Looking up at him again, he looks at me with a strange emotion in his eyes that I can't understand.

"He loved you more than anything in this world, he would have done anything for you." Elex shakes his head and lets out a half laugh, "That stupid best friend of mine."

"I didn't mean to do what I did."

Elex growls at me, making my spine prickle with something I don't feel often.

Fear.

"You meant it. It was clear as day. He became just an obstacle in your way once your mind realized what your choices where."

We both stop talking when the front door opens and the rest of the children come in, Ben immediately looks at us and lets his eyes linger on me.

His attraction to me as always been there, but I don't think it is right to take him from his mate that he will meet one day. I can't be selfish like that again, I already did that once.