Don't Worry .. Chris Brown Story

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" When can we go to dinner ? " Michael spoke into the phone.

" Well , whenever you're free , I'm not on the clock this week so you can choose a date that fits your schedule "

" How about tomorrow, I'll pick you up at 7 and we'll go to dinner " he said back

" It's a date " I said , making my voice high pitched

" Okay, I'll call you back later. My daughter is trying to tear the place up " he chuckled

Wait , what? He has a daughter?

" O- Okay " I said hanging my up

I have no problem with kids, I just don't want to eventually start liking him a lot or just fall for him period and there's either baby mama drama , or his child just may not be fond of me because I'm not her mother, or anything else .. yall know how that goes.

Man, what'd I get myself into, once again.

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5:45 the next day

" I'm thinking about canceling the dinner " I told Mick, I was upstairs in my bedroom.

I was telling her about him and that I realized he had a daughter.

" Bitch , NO! It's not like you're going to dinner with his baby mama , you're going with him. It's nothing wrong with him having a child. "

" I never said it was, it's just I like guys with a fresh start , you know " I shrugged

" But, Lex .. remember , you didn't start off with a fresh start either "
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Flashback

" You trying to tell me you don't want nothing to do with our child after I already had her? "
I said through tears

" I mean I ain't mind the relationship or having sex but I didn't expect to be getting a baby out of it , this soon at that " he responded

" What'd you expect after having unprotected sex ? " I said as more tears came out.

" I don't know, man. " he shrugged as he sat on the bed in his room.

It then grew silent.

" Well, your daughter is in the hospital, her name is Raniyah Foster and she's 4 lbs and 7 oz, I had her last week, which was October 13th, are you going to even go see her? "

" I'll call you when ever I'm on my way up there " he said while looking into his phone

I shook my head, wiped my tears and left out of his bedroom and out of the front door.

I can't believe Keenan, we've been together for a year and 7 months and we had sex for a total of 15 times, yes I've counted. We always talked about having kids or joked about how it'd be if we did, but I guess he was speaking into the future, not as in a ' what if ' way.

I can't take care of this baby, though. I knew that once I found out I was pregnant but Keenan always reassured me it'd be okay or he's here for me, as well as my mom and I just didn't believe in abortion. I still don't. I realized he was saying what sounded right at the moment and not meaning it.

Present day thoughts

My daughter, Raniyah was born when I was 19, she's now 5 and she lives with my mom. My mom took her in because when I had her, I wasn't stable enough to care for her. I was depressed, not only because the man I thought was the love of my life wanted nothing to do with his child but also because I had lost one of my favorite cousins, more like a sister to me.