Don't Worry .. Chris Brown Story

What Went Down

" You think you okay, girl? " Mick spoke into the phone.

" I don't know like I just feel like it's taking over me again. " I whispered into the phone while Chris and Raniyah were asleep. It's 1 in the morning and I hadn't been to sleep yet.

" Well do what you did last time. " she said

" What was that? I kind of forgot. "

" Relax first of all, take some muscle relaxers if you can't. Then, a few deep breaths then go into your notes and write down how you feel... then text it to me so you can feel like you have someone listening to you then go to sleep, you should feel better the next day. If not... drink some tea, it's calming. " she said. It may not sound like something that helps mild paranoia and anxiety, but it usually helps me.

" Why won't you talk to Chris ? " she spoke back up

" I don't wanna sound weird to him, you know he's very critical and he might think I'm just crazy as fuck. "

" This may sound weird coming from me but, from what you're telling me, he's also very supportive." She responded

" But that was that situation about Raniyah and Keenan... this is about me going nuts in the head, he may not be that understanding. "

" Wasn't he the one that said he's there to go through everything and it all with you? " she said

" Yeah, but that doesn't mean he's going to understand and keep his comments to himself, me going through things and understanding someone's psychological state is two different things, and he's just a critical person.. " I said trying to get her to understand where I'm coming from.

" I still think you should tell him."

" I think I'm going to just follow my first mind and not. Every time you recommend me to do something and I do it, I end up getting the worst end of the stick. I listened to you damn near beg me to give Michael a chance and that same night I ended up drugged and raped so I think I'm going to hold off on your tips for right now." I said and rolled my eyes as if she could see me.

" Well don't come crying to me and blowing up my phone when you're having one of your episodes. "

" Mick... I never do that. I only texted you because you're the only person that knows anything about this but trust, if I could've told someone else about this I would have, that would've saved me from your crazy ass advice." 

" I guess. I'm about to go to bed, I'm really tired so goodnight. "

" Night. " I said and she hung up.

Mickey 🎈❤️ : Love You.
1:46 AM

Love you too.
1:46 AM

When I and her argue, instead of her admitting where she went wrong or how stupid she may sound, she just gets offended and brushes off what is said especially since when we argue, its never anything too intense. I wasn't trying to be rude and offensive either, it's just she wasn't really understanding where I was coming from.
And, I know Chris is suppose to be supportive of things and of me-- especially since he's my boyfriend and he very well may be but that won't change his critical thinking and what he might say. He doesn't bite his tongue for anyone and I'm just not up for telling him and I have the right to not be.

I left out of the bathroom where I was on the phone at and went to lay down, hoping to finally doze off.

" What's keeping you up? " Chris said once I laid down, I didn't even see him wake up.