Nights only the Winter Remembers

seaborne

the biggest talent the universe bares is the art of surprising
i still recall the night I met you
barely remembering any other part of that night
because four loko convinced me it defeated the purpose of getting drunk
sweat and heat with a hint of must perplexed the mood
early 2000s hip hop
that loosen my hips in liberation
that you found a way to grip so unexpectedly
i face timed you yesterday
images of you occurred in a hallucination
ridged nights
studying shit i've taught myself
there is no professor for self love
i need someone's hands for my heart to melt in
even if it seeps through your fingers like hand soap
i wanted you to love me enough to want me to love myself
you only wanted to love me when i was ready to stop loving you
like water i was just there for you to detox your mind
i often went down town to places you are not comfortable with me staying in
but you never reminded me to not take my shoes off yet
at first i didn't get the gist of that in its totality
but now I know
consistency hasn't smelled your cologne yet
and i hope your future lover will be welcomed by your cologne every night in security
of only her shirt being stained with your scent

- i could not have waited for you forever