This Love (Niall fanfiction)

chapter 65

Niall's P.O.V -

There was blood everywhere from her kicking me. There's a huge gash right above my length. Most likely I'll have to get stitches. That's why there is blood everywhere. Seeing blood everywhere just brought back a bunch of old memories. Getting in bar fights with assholes that try anything on Cleo, defending her with my life. I lashed out on her.

I couldn't stop. I saw fear in her eyes and that's exactly what I liked to see out of the guys that I'd fight. I was so close to hitting her. If she didn't flinch the other way, I would have. I don't deserve Cleo. She tried to stay calm with me and I lashed out on her.

I try to call her cell phone, but it just rings and rings. No answer.

I send her text messages apologizing, begging for her to come back.

'She's not coming back.' my mind reminds me. I walk into the room, seeing the hole in the wall that my fist was in almost two hours ago. I see Cleo's clothes neatly hung up in the closet. The bathroom counter is filled with her hair and face products.

I miss her.

I call her again.. nothing.

I leave a voicemail at the beep:

Cleo, I'm sorry. More than anything. I'm genuinely sorry. I mean it. Whenever you left, I went back inside and searched for Snowball, but forgot you took her. You took her along with my heart. I can't live without you, Cleo. Whenever I came out of the bathroom, I lashed out at you because I thought you were someone else. I'm sorry I hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, Cleo.. in anyway. I don't want to live if it's not with you. I'm leaving you this message to let you know that I never stopped loving you or caring for you. You came into my life and made me a much better, happier person. And then I fucked up and let you slip through my fingers. I'm sorry I let you go, Cleo. Well, this is it. I love you, Cleo. Goodbye.

I went into the bathroom, to find any kind of pills I can. I don't want to be here if I'm not with Cleo. I'm not good enough for her, that's why she left.

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Cleo's P.O.V -

My phone stopped buzzing for a while then buzzed again. I decided to check this one because maybe it was from a different person. Unlocking my phone to see 21 missed calls, 29 text messages, 1 voicemail. All from Niall.

I click the voice mail and began to listen to it on speaker while petting Snowball.

Cleo, I'm sorry. More than anything. I'm genuinely sorry. I mean it. Whenever you left, I went back inside and searched for Snowball, but forgot you took her. You took her along with my heart. I can't live without you, Cleo. Whenever I came out of the bathroom, I lashed out at you because I thought you were someone else. I'm sorry I hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, Cleo.. in anyway. I don't want to live if it's not with you. I'm leaving you this message to let you know that I never stopped loving you or caring for you. You came into my life and made me a much better, happier person. And then I fucked up and let you slip through my fingers. I'm sorry I let you go, Cleo. Well, this is it. I love you, Cleo. Goodbye. 

He's going to try to kill himself. I just grabbed Snowball, purse and my phone and left. Not even bothering to check out. I need to get to him right now. I run to my car, speeding out of the parking lot. It took me a while to get here only because I kept stopping. There's no way in hell I'm stopping now.

All of the red lights are passed up, but I don't care. The speed limit it 55, but I'm going 95. I have to get to him. I shouldn't have left. He told me he couldn't live without me. I feel tears roll down my cheeks and I wipe them out with my sleeve of my sweater. I can't pull over. This isn't about my emotions, feelings, absolutely nothing. I'm two blocks away and the cars stop and move slowly.