This Love (Niall fanfiction)

chapter 31

Cleo's P.O.V -

I'm straddling Niall on the couch with his hands steady on my waist.

"Cleo, stop." He moves away.

"Why? I'm comfortable with this. Can't you tell?" I give a weak smile.

I put my hands around his neck pulling him up, off of his back and into my chest. His hands trail up and down my sides repeatedly while he kisses my neck.

"No." He moves back, shaking his head and sighing. "I can't do this, knowing you aren't ready."

"Niall! Yes I am! Why won't you just do it? This isn't fair! You have sex all of the time! The one time I want to give myself to someone special, I get rejected!" I burst.

"I'm not rejecting you!"

"Then, what are you do you think you're doing right now?! You're rejecting m-"

"Cleo! No, I'm not! I'm not rejecting you! And do not bring up my past. I don't do that anymore, so leave that topic alone." He squints his eyes at me.

"What? Am I not good enough to have sex with you? Is it because it'll be my first time? Is it because I'm inexperienced? Is it because of my acne and glasses? Because I look like a dork? You don't want your friends to know? Is that's why you wo-"

"Cleo! Stop! Just stop! You know none of that is true! Don't try to use that against me just to make me feel bad for you!"

"I don't need your pity! Why do you keep rejec-"

Niall begins to lower his kisses down above the left side of my chest and sucks on my skin quickly, proving his point. I tilt my head to the side to give him more access. My breathing is increasing, my nerves getting the best of me and I run my fingers through my hair allowing myself to take a deep breath.

"Let's go upstairs." He says grabbing me by my waist. I can tell that he is a bit annoyed due to me wanting to lose my virginity while he's hungover.

He then gets off of the couch with my bum in his hands. I wrap my legs around Niall's waist, with my hands still around the back of his neck. He begins to walk up the stairs and I suck on his neck. I lift my head up slightly to nibble on his earlobe. We're not even all of the way up the stairs and he puts me down and I am placed one step above the one that he is standing on. I reach for his pants and pull them down.

He steps out of them leaving him only in his underwear. I am still in my bra and his sweatpants. I move closer towards him and wrap my hands around his neck and kiss his lips, waiting for him to deepen the kiss because I don't want to.

Niall picks me up off of the carpet by suprise and I squeal out of anxiety because I wasn't expecting him to do that. Once my feet are back on the ground, his hands go lower until they're in my pants.

"Don't be nervous. You're doing great. I'm not rejecting you." He pulls them down, still making eye contact with me. He smiles and grabs the back of my neck with one hand and my waist with the other, pulling me closer.

"You're so beautiful because you are enough for me." he whispers with his lips running over mine before kissing me. I only stand in my bra and underwear. We both still stand at the top of the stairs. The walk to his bedroom was quite difficult because we kept bumping into things. Niall reaches his hands behind me, unlatching my bra, making my bra fall to the ground.

I slap my arms across my chest We press our chests together and harshly kiss each other. By the time we get to his room I had pulled down his underwear so he's fully naked.

"I am not rejecting you. If you want to stop at any moment, just tell me to stop and I will." He nods and I nod back.

Niall closes the door shut while I walk over to his bed. He gently pushes me down by my shoulders, making himself hover over me. I put both of my hands on his back and pull him down to me.

"Babe, scoot up." Niall says with his lips still pressed to mine. I scoot up higher on the bed and Niall crawls up. He grabs me by ankles gently and runs his hands all the way up to my hips and smoothly latches his hands into my underwear and pulls them down.

"These are cute." he says smiling while he pulls them down.

"Thanks, I got them on sale." The redness in my cheeks appear whenever I lift my bum higher a little so he can pull them down. The only thing between us is my necklace. I smile nervously as he opens my legs and crawls on top of me, hovering my body. I pull him by his neck and while we are making out. His right hand comes up to my mouth holding out his index finger.

"W-what are you doing?" Dammit. My voice is coming out shaky with every word, I'm just going to nod from now on.

"Suck."

"On your finger? For what?"

"I don't want to force you into anything you aren't comfortable doing..do you want to stop?" His voice is softer than it usually is and he tucks my hair behind my ear.

"I'm just new to- to all of this stuff. I want to keep going." I stick his finger in my mouth and slide my tongue around it. I'm still making eye contact with Niall.

He pulls it out of my mouth and lowers it down to my entrance, then begins to go around inside of me with his finger and brings it back out again. He gestures two fingers now. Niall tells me to suck on his middle finger and once it's completely wet he pulls it out. He then inserts them both, doing the same action as before.

"Ow, ow, ow, okay wait. That hurts." I tense up and move his hand back.

"Cleo, I know you want to keep going, but I don't want to hurt you. Let's just wait, okay?" He kisses my bellybutton.

"No, no I'm fine. Can you just kiss me first, then do whatever it is." I ask while my cheeks set on fire.

"I love kissing you, of course I will. Ready?" He says bends down some. He comes up and we begin wresting with our tongues gently, but affectionately. He swipes over my entrance with his length and I fist the sheets as he goes in. As he goes deeper, I move one of my hands to his back, scraping my nails against his skin. We're both staring at each other in the eye for about a minute, then continue to kiss each other.

"It's going to hurt the first time, Cleo." He calms me down whenever he hears my sniffles.

He stays in one spot and it feels weird. "Niall, move." I strain breathlessly. Niall grabs the sheets above my head and goes deeper into me. I throw my head back and squeeze my eyes shut. I can feel Niall going faster making me whimper his name. I felt him go deeper, rolling his hips against mine breathing heavily. He kisses my neck and I can tell he's close because he's sucking on my neck hard and whimpering my name.

"It's okay, it's okay." His voice grunts in my ear.

"Ow." I let out a sob as I feel Nialls warmth fill up inside the condom. Feeling that I rolled my hips up roughly against his making myself reach my high. I throw my head back, crying out in pain, literally.. and scratching Niall's back. We're clammy feeling from sweating. He looks down and rolls against me before pulling out.

"T-that was-" Niall said breathlessly.

"Unbelievable.. and painful." I finished for him. I could barley move now. I couldn't image my first time with any other person than Niall. He reaches his hand over my waist and pulls me over to him. His legs are open and I lay on top of him. He slides me up on top of him, and I can feel his length glide against my stomach. I lay sprawled out on him. Niall wraps one of his hands around my waist, letting the other hand rest on my bum.

"Why didn't you tell me to stop?" He snaps and I don't respond.

"I wanted to keep going. I liked watching you."

I look up at him and he smiles. I scoot up closer, so my head is in the middle of his chest.

"You did great." Niall runs his hand over my hair while my heart pounds quickly.

"It really hurt a lot, but you did great too." I laugh quietly.

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