fragments

Silent apologies

(could be taken as a companion chapter to "White Sheets")

             
            The Beach/ The Neighbourhood

I guess, in a sense, we were never two separate people.

We were one, you and I.

A heart torn in two and beating in two different bodies.

But although torn and broken, it still beats at the same speed, in the same way, for the same person.

Sometimes, whenever I feel like fooling myself, I bring two fingers to my neck and imagine that the gentle thud under my fingers is your blood pumping and not mine.

I imagine that you're not in your room breaking because of me the same way I'm breaking because of you. Desperate and shattered the same way I am. Grieving but not for love but rather the simple potential of it. 

Sometimes, I wonder if it would be easier to lie to you. To tell you I hate you, your feelings don't matter to me, you're meaningless and I want you to leave.

But then I remember that it's you.
The only one I can't hide from.

All I wanted was to hold your hand. But baby,  you wear your heart on your sleeve and your sleeves oversized.

I guess it fell and shattered.

But we're a heart torn in two, so I guess we shattered both.

                                  *****

Hi you guys!

I know this is super short but I haven't been feeling scott and mitch as characters lately:/
As you've probably noticed my last works are super generic since I'm developing my own personal works.

(I have a book drafted actually and would appreciate some input on whether you'd read or not!!)

Anyways, you'll have to bare with me until I fall back into this!!

x