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Won't Give Up

I sat down on the yellow chair, not even thinking it was actually recess, but I didn't get anything to eat since I wasn't in the mood to. I bit my lower lip and tears started to flow out of my eyes, feeling regretful and all. But I know I can't give up on him, I can't give up on Baekhyun.

I wished I didn't rent that car for our date. I wish it never happened. I wished it was all just a dream. But what I don't know is that everybody's already looking at me like I am crazy, but they don't know what I'm going through right now. I am under a situation that I have to bring my boyfriend's memories back, and hell, they don't even know how damn risky it is. I tried to smile in front of him all the time but it seems like it's not working at all anymore. Guilt and pain is filling up my chest day by day whenever I see him. Every single day, I can't help but kill myself because it hurts seeing him.

If people knew how much it hurts for me to see someone you love deeply....forgot you? It hurts a lot. It's even more painful then getting a stab in the stomach.

I love Baekhyun so much that it hurts.

I love Baekhyun so much that I would do everything just for him.

I love Baekhyun so much that I would spend all of my allowance just to give him a gift everyday.

It hurts...so bad.

"Chanyeol, it's been long since we haven't seen you." The sudden familiar voice shocked me. When I looked up, it was Kai and Kyungsoo, both sad expressions on their faces, like, we are in some funeral or mourning or what. "Oh...Kai...Kyungsoo...you guys okay now?" I managed to ask without even crying loud. They both smiled, and it's a sad smile. I just don't know why I feel so alone...and Baekhyun is still alive, but it seems like he's dead.

Kai frowned. "You shouldn't be worrying about us, Chan. Me and Kyungsoo should be worrying about you and Baekhyun." His name crushed my heart for the 10th time today. A bunch of feelings that I wanna say out loud to Baekhyun, but I know he will not know what I am talking about, because he doesn't remember me.

"Chanyeol, you should break up with him." Kyungsoo spoke. I looked straight at him with teary eyes. What? Break up with him? But how? What in the world would think of an idea such as that? "Chanyeol, you must break up with him. Go have your own lives, sometimes, first loves ain't forever. There are many other people out there who can be better than----" I cut him off with a glare at him. He doesn't know how I will feel broken without him. He doesn't even know anything. "Don't you dare give me that suggestion, Kyungsoo." The last word before I stormed off the canteen, resulting to everyone looking at me like hell.

I won't give up on Baekhyun. I never will, I will get his memories back. I will make sure of that because I have enough trust in myself. I don't care if it is hard or what, that's the only option left for our love story to continue.

I stopped walking and I was in the middle of the hallway. I was all alone, isolated. Well, it was the perfect time for isolation, so I could  think of a plan. "Channie?" Someone called behind me. I didn't want to look back, because I knew it was Baekhyun. "Uh, Baekhyun..." Now here goes the Shy Chanyeol side again. "Hehe, Chan, wanna eat lunch with me later?" How come he's talking to me like those freshman days? That seems so impossible. I turned my back to face him, and saw a smiling Baekhyun.

The smile that I love.

"YAH! PARK CHANYEOL! WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING ME!" He suddenly yelled, oh yeah, I spaced out again. Great. "Okay, okay." I calmly answered and he ran to me. Okay, is he going to hug me?

I opened my eyes to see Baekhyun hugging me. Why is he acting like this? We aren't freshmen anymore. "I love you, Park Chanyeol." He said while hugging my waist. But I know he doesn't remember that we are in a relationship already.

I won't give up on him.

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Author's Note:

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P.S. This chapter is dedicated to QueenzyCurry