Believing You

Chapter 11 - Dear Diary

Jade's Pov

Mabel really is the best sister I could ever have, she knows exactly what to do to make me feel better every time. Eating ice cream really did help lighten up my mood, that was until I saw something sticking out under my bed. It's the box of stuff that I refused to unpack until now, why did I even bring all these back? I mentally slapped myself when I pulled out my old diary, the diary I started writing in since I was 8. Mom gave it to me she told me to write down everything that's happen so I can either remember it for life or take it as a lesson to remember. I opened it to learn about one of my life lesson, never develop feelings towards boys.

Dear diary,

Life cannot possibly suck more than it already does. For starters one of my friends told 'stitch' ( I won't mention his name again ever) that I had a crush on him. That's not the worst thing that can happen, she told me today and expected me to be okay with it. She was my friend since pre-school, I trusted her. Now the worst part, a normal guy would act like he doesn't know about anything and continue to be friends with the person who has a crush on him ( I could be wrong). I know that 'stitch' is not like a normal guy, he likes to keep to himself sometimes, his kind of weird compared to other guys. When he's good he treats people so good that you would mistaken him for an angel. Here's what most people don't know, he actually hates mostly everyone that he interacts with, he acts all good in front of you but when his at your back he can say a million kind of bad things. Trust me I had to learn it the bad way. He hates me more than he hates anybody now since he knew that I had a crush on him. I overheard him telling my friend one time that he thinks that I am one of the ugliest girl he has ever met, who has a weird personality and well stupid.

All of his words hit me like I have been shot several times in the heart. I tried to forget whatever he said, tried to hate him, tried to prevent any chances of meeting up with him. I went as far as not turning up for any events, parties, outings that he goes to. I don't want to ruin everyone's mood with my presence, especially his. It's hurts to see that he has fun with every one of my friends when I'm not there, when I'm there he just stands there literally like a stick. That's why now I am here writing to you about my useless life instead of hanging out with them at the amusement park. His word hurt me and is still haunting me, I know I am ugly and has a weird personality but coming from a boys point of view not to mention his just doubles the effect. Now I know that nobody will ever date me, they like beautiful girls, popular girls, not a potato like me......

I shut and threw my diary on the floor once I finished reading it, angry at myself for bringing up old memories. I told myself to have a new start, moving here is the perfect chance. If only I didn't meet Tyler......

"Hey sis!" Mabel said as she came into my room. " What's this?" She took a picture that was lying on the floor. Shit! It must have slipped out from diary when I threw it.

"Give it back!" I yelled at her trying to snatch it back. Failing badly when I landed with a face plant on my bed, I gave up and kept my head there.

"Is this the picture where you guys went camping? The camp you went with him before all of the drama started? Jade why are you still keeping this picture...... It's already been so long. You need to forget about him, his an asshole, a jerk who deserves to stay single for the rest of his life."

I took the opportunity to take back my picture from her hands when she flopped down next to me. It was one of the last pictures that I took with him in it, he was wearing his sunglasses and lying on the floor with his signature pose, using one of his hand to support his head. It was actually a half candid picture, the rest of the guys were doing crazy poses such as piggy backing or carrying their friends up bridal style. Only a few of the girls were camera ready where I was busy laughing off with my friends about their pose.