I Can't Live Without You [COMPLETED]

|20| Falling

We arrived home pretty late so I head straight to bed.

"Night Jinny", says Sung Joo.

"Night."

I walk up the stairs to my room.

I'm a terrible person.

I just wanna die.

I plop myself down on my bed.

Kill me.

...

Its been about 2 hours and I'm still lying in my bed awake.

Sleepless.

I get up and walk down stairs to get a drink of water.

As I pick up my glass I realize Sung Joo is actually asleep for once.

He's on the couch slightly shivering.

I walk over to him.

You're such a good friend.

Look at the mess I've gotten you into.

I cover him up with a blanket.

Goodbye.

With that I walk out the door and down the building.

I just wanna go home.

...

I don't know where I'm going.

I don't see a hospital anywhere.

All the streets look the same.

Tears of frustration begin to well up in my eyes.

I just wanna go home.

"Sir are you ok?

I turn around and see a girl with I'm guessing her boyfriend behind me.

"W-where's the hospital?"

They both stare at me in confusion and worry.

"Down the street and to the right. Are you ok?"

I nod my head avoiding eye contact,"Yes. Thank you."

I turn and run as fast as I can.

Almost home.

I'm almost home.

...

I'm sitting on the rooftop holding the plant in my hands.

Seo Yeon gave this to me.

She loves me.

I loved Seo Yeon.

I loved her.

Why can't I love her now?

Why am I breaking her?

I drop the plant crying and it shatters on the ground.

I broke our love.

I stand up and walk towards the edge of the roof.

Why is my life such a mess?

God why?

I thought you were good so why am I suffering?

Why is everyone around me suffering?

Yeah we have our bad times but when will I ever get a break?

What's the point of even living anymore?

I look down at the ground below.

What if I jumped?

Maybe everyone would finally be happy their suffering is over.

I just bring hell on them so finally they'd be free.

I look down again.

It's for the best.

Here goes nothing...

"JIN SUNG NO!!!!"

I barely turn around in time to catch a glimpse of Seo Yeon.

Stop!

But it's too late...

I'm already falling.