I Can't Live Without You [COMPLETED]

|19| Living Pain

"Jin Sung!"

The sun blinds me as I open my eyes.

"Jin Sung are you ok?"

"Do you remember anything?"

I look at Sung Joo and Seo Yeon's desperate faces.

"Maybe."

Jin Sung jumps up and down,"Oh! Oh! What?!"

I look over at the plant. It seems to be dying.

"Someone I loved gave that to me."

"Uh huh. Uh huh. You remember who?"

I look away.

I already know that answer...

But it's not because I remembered it...

I look at Seo Yeon who looks slightly hurt.

I'm sorry.

"Well", Sung Joo seems to have picked up my message,"Why don't we go get some lunch? I'm starving."

He begins to walk back inside so Seo Yeon and I follow.

I wish I could remember...

...

Sung Joo suggests we eat at the little noodle house down the street so we walk.

"It's nice outside today huh?"

"Yeah.."

"Eomma! Eomma look it's Dory!"

A little girl runs right in front of me.

Dory...

"Shin Jae watch where you're going! Sorry sir."

"No you're fine..."

Dory..

I begin to walk towards the theater.

Dory...

Dory..

"Jin Sung where are you going?"

Dory...

Nemo...

Sung Joo...

I stop in front of a picture of a blue fish.

Dory...

I can hear the movie..

My Eomma...

Sung Joo's Eomma...

Gone...

What?

Tears begin to fall down my face but I don't know why.

I remember...

S-she's...

S-she's dead...

"Hey Jin Sung- what's wrong? Are you crying?"

"D-dory", is all I can manage to get out.

"Dory?" Says Seo Yeon,"What is he talking about?"

Sung Joo kneels down.

"Jin Sung who died?"

I don't want to admit it for his sake.

"I.. don't ... know."

He grows angered by my response.

"Jin Sung just answer me."

"I don't know!"

He stands up.

"Jin Sung just answer the question! Who the hell is dead!?!"

I begin wheezing.

"Your Eomma!"

I'm so sorry.

He turns around.

"Good", he says.

I can hear the sadness in his voice.

"You remembered something. That's good progress. Let's go eat."

With that he begins walking back towards the restaurant while Seo Yeon helps me up.

I don't want to remember anymore.

Everything is just too depressing.

I keep having to apologize because all I do is hurt everyone.

Why didn't I just die?

I'm just living pain.

I'm sorry.