Little White Lies

Unrequited?

"Kurt." Anna nodded before glancing down and allowing her mouth to drop open, "Chandler?"

"Anna, I-"

"What the hell?" The brunette shrieked, "Kurt you-"

"Can explain." Kurt interrupted, "I- we." Kurt glanced down to Chandler as remembered the previous events of the past hour.

*Flash back*

Kurt raised his head when he heard someone open a door. Smiling, he waved Chandler over, "Hey, sleepy head. Have a good nap?"

Chandler nodded, rubbing his eye sleepily.

"Coffee?" Kurt lifted his cup and laughed as Chandler stared at it, nodding once again, suddenly more awake.

"I'll go get you some."

Kurt came back into the room with Chandler's coffee mug in his hand.

He almost dropped the mug, however, when he saw that Chandler had curled in on himself, much like Kurt had found him when he was asleep.

Except this time he wasn't asleep, he was very much awake. Awake and crying.

Kurt slowly moved towards the small table by the side of his sofa, gently setting Chandler's coffee down before pulling Chandler off of his sofa and onto the floor where he proceeded to hug the boy and gently rock him backwards and forwards.

He had no idea what was going on with Chandler, all he knew was that he had to be here for his friend.

Only 2 minutes later, Chandler pulled away, sniffing slightly and rubbing his eyes.

Kurt smiled gently when Chandler finally looked up at him, his eyes red and puffy, "You gonna tell me what's wrong?"

"I- Kurt." Chandler took a steadying breath, suddenly becoming very intrigued with the carpet below him, "I know you're- you're probably going to-to hate me after this but I can't- I just can't keep it a secret anymore."

Kurt frowned, "A se-"

"Please, just let me talk." Chandler shook his head, still refusing to meet Kurt's eyes, "I- you're my best friend, Kurt. I've known you since High School and you'll never know how much you've saved me. When I met you, I was only just coming to grips with who I was. I-I didn't know what- what was going on. I felt... confused? I knew I liked girls, I had my whole life and I'd been told that was right but- but I also liked boys. I-I didn't know what to think. I assumed I was gay and immediately told my father, hoping he'd be able to help me. But he couldn't. He simply told me I was wrong and it was just a phase. So, I believed him..." Chandler paused, "And then I met you and- and everything made sense, Kurt. All of a sudden it- it didn't matter if you were male or female, it didn't matter if my dad would hate me for it. I just- I knew then that I couldn't be straight. You- I was convinced you had turned me gay."

Kurt raised an eyebrow and Chandler shook his head, laughing slightly.

"But then I got to know you. And, even though you couldn't see it, I knew you loved Blaine." Kurt blushed slightly and skilfully covered it by turning around to grab his coffee cup, "But I still- I still had feelings for you. You introduced me to Dave and, once again, my life changed. I knew it wasn't right what we were doing. Sneaking around, doing- never mind, you know what we did. Just- we did it and- and I didn't know what I was feeling but I liked it. Pretty soon I realised it was love so I immediately told Dave. He reciprocated the feelings and you know how that story ends. Here. Dave gets aggressive, I break up with him and, once again, you save me."

Kurt smiled and opened his mouth to speak, but Chandler continued, "I- Kurt, you're convinced that Blaine doesn't like you anymore, right?" Kurt's smile dropped and he raised his coffee mug to his lips silently, "Just as I thought. So, you know what unrequited love feels like?" Kurt frowned slightly, "It sucks, don't you think? You love someone so, so much but you know you can't have them, you know they'll never be yours. It is the absolute worst feeling because all you can do is dream about them and wish for them, but never, ever have them. You can be friends with them, best friends even, but you'll never be anything more than that. You love them so freaking much, it feels like you could die. And you try hard, you try so hard. But nothing you do will make them love you. And nothing you do will make you not love them. To be honest, I still haven't figured out what is worse. The fact that they don't love you, or the fact that you love them. It's weird, you feel so incredibly happy thinking about them, their smile, their beautiful blue eyes, their weird obsessions, their perfect hair, their-" Chandler glanced up to see Kurt narrowing his eyes at him and quickly cleared his throat, "And, Kurt, you can either say how you feel and fuck up your friendship or you say nothing and let it fuck you up instead."

Kurt sighed, "Chandler are you-"

"I'm not going to let this fuck me up, Kurt. I'm already messed up enough, thanks to Dave." Chandler took a deep breath, "I love you, Kurt Hummel. I love you so much and it kills me knowing that you don't love me back."

Kurt gaped at him. Chandler nodded sadly and stood up, "I understand. You don't love me. You love Blaine. I-"

*End of flashback*

And that's when Kurt had kissed him, silencing the boy. Kurt smiled at the memory before looking up when Anna cleared her throat, finally remembering where he was.

"Are you okay?" Anna frowned, "You just kind of froze and started staring at Chandler."

"I- we were just-"  Kurt cut himself off. They were just what? Making out? What was he meant to say? Anna knew what they were doing.

Kurt sighed and glanced back down at a very disheveled Chandler who was gaping up at him, his green eyes wide and his mouth slightly parted.

Kurt smiled and slowly looked up to meet Anna's eyes, "I love him."

Phew, I'm sweating. That was some tense stuff. I struggled to write that.

glee_xo volunteered to try help me but I refused because obviously if I let her help me then it would be obvious that I hadn't written it because it would be just too amazing for me to write. But I just wanna say thank you to her anyways xx

^.^