Numb: The Absence Of Feeling

He never loved me repeat

✋✋STOP! Chapter warning: in this chapter is going to go about her verbal and psychological abuse, and if you can't handle it then you can skip and I'll try to make this chapter not to plot heavy so you wouldn't be missing much.I will give everyone a warning before the abuse starts. You have been warned. But other than that I hope you enjoy it and I'm writing some new books and one shots so enjoy!!!✋✋✋

~READERS POV~

My cheeks felt warm as sunlight shined faintly through, I open eyes slowly letting them readjust to the natural light. I was in my room again, I took over to my side to see Jason laying next to me rubbing my bulging stomach. "Jason...." I say ever so softly.

His striking blue eyes scan my face with a soft smile spread across his lip with his messy bed head. His fingers caress my face as if I was glass. "How's my beautiful flower?" Tears swelled up in my eyes. His voice was something I craved more than water. He wipes my tears away with his thumb before rubbing my cheeks softly. I could feel the heat from his fingers warming up my entire body.  "I have to leave now but I'll be back."

"W-What? Why?"I ask with a whimper as he gets up from bed and getting dressed. He opens the door ignoring my pleads before stopping in the door frame and giving me a soft smile. "Jason no! Don't leave! Y-You can't!" My body felt was cement when I tried to get up from my bed. The walls of my bedroom began to stretch into a never ending hallway separating me from Jason. "Come back!! Jason don't leave us!!" Sunshine turned into dim artificial light as hands started to grow out from the darkness grabbing me and pulling me deeper. "NO!!" I scream bloody murder but my body wouldn't move until I was completely in darkness as I felt weightless and frozen while I struggled to comprehend what just happened.

"(Y/n)....(Y/n) wakie wakie...." Jason's voice echoed through the darkness. I spun towards his voice and without my body moving, I moved towards him. I felt weightless and joyful. There he was waiting for me, but as I got closer he started to sound less like himself but more like the Joker. I shook my head quickly placing my hands over my ears digging my palms into my ears but it was already to late his laughter echoed in my ears I couldn't get his FACE out of my head. I scream once again only for it to be drowned by his laughter. "(Y/n)....(Y/n)..." he sang.

Soft click of shoes echoed from down behind me, "Jason?" I called out. 

The Joker laughed behind me cruelly slowly my eyes started to open again my brain realizing what had happened....I was dreaming....it hurt to move to much. My bones and wounds were still in the process of healing. I missed my family, Jason, our old life, I wanted nothing more but to make it home safely but the probability of that actually happening were slim to none. 

The thought of Jason never coming back to save us was growing bigger and bigger every day and I'm slowly losing the will to keep fighting anymore. Who am I kidding, who am I lying to anymore?

He's not coming back for us and I'm gonna die here, but that can't be right, he still loves me. He has too still love me. I felt a pain in my heart that was worse than what the Joker and Harely Quinn could ever put me through. The crushing pain of betrayal and heartbreak.

Start of the abuse:

I watched them wake around my wrapping barbed wire around me tightly forcing me to stay still. "How long does she have Harley?" Excitement laced The Jokers voice.

"Not long." She replied happily,"I'd say a month until we can finally have it." They shared a glance before grinning. "I can't wait puddin'." A sharp pain shot through me causing me to jump and the barbed wire snag me skin drawing blood. I wince in pain. The Joker walks away leaving me and Harley alone as she smiles pulling herself a chair and sitting next to me with two bowls in her hands. One with water the other with brown musky food.  "I can't wait to be a mommy."