torn • jb & yg

t w e n t y n i n e

We finished shooting the next morning while the boys had breakfast on the shore and then did our way back to Seoul. The trip was long and I was grateful that they divided us the same way as before. I was with the crew members in one van.

I just wanted to avoid JB as much as I can and seeing Yugyeom and knowing that he's clueless about what happened between me and JB back in the woods just makes me want to rip my heart out. I hate to keep this thing from him but if I tell him right now it may harm his relationship with his hyung and my position on the company.

I sighed as I stuck my head on the window. The beautiful scenery of Busan and its endless charm around us. I'd never have thought that my first experience here would be this awful.

After several hours we finally arrived JYP building and they gave us the rest of the day off since they assumed we were tired from the trip. I noticed Yugyeom coming towards me with a big smile.

"Hey you." He said smiling with his eyes.

My heart skipped a bit when I noticed JB looking at us on the background. I cleared my throat and looked down.

"Are you tired from the trip?" He asked and I nodded. He grabbed my hand and we started walking around.

"I missed you back there. I wish I could have travel with you guys." Yugyeom said with a sweet voice.

"I know, me too." I said. Deep in my heart I know this isn't entirely true. In another situation I would have, but things are different now and the least I want is upset Yugyeom.

"Wanna go back to the dorm?" He asked.

"I... I promised Nana we'd go somewhere first." I said. He looked at me confused and tilted his head.

"Oh okay... Do you want me to come with you-

"No, that won't be necessary. I'll meet you later okay?" I asked. He looked at me a bit bewildered but he finally nodded and smiled.

I turned around and looked for Nana, good thing that she was talking on the phone. I just stood there next to her with my bags and waited for her to finish talking.

"Is everything alright between you and Yugyeom?" She asked while we rode a taxi back to our dorms.

"Uh yeah sure, why?" I asked casually. I thought about confessing my situation to her but I am not sure if that would be a wise thing. I felt like this was eating me alive inside, I just wanted to talk to someone and I cursed on my mind about the fact that Ira was back in London, this is totally a thing I'd confess to him without even thinking it twice.

"I just... Noticed you guys were acting a bit strange back there." She said.

"Oh no. I just wanted to come here quickly because I need some rest." I said and she nodded.

"Yeah I feel you. I want to take a long bath and sleep like twelve hours straight." She said laughing.

***

After I arrived my apartment, I noticed an envelope has been slipped under my door. I noticed it was an invitation for the new years eve party which was in two days from now. I unpacked and washed all the clothes I took to Busan. I cooked some meals and put them in plastic containers and took a long warm shower. While I was on the shower I kept thinking about ways of saying it to Yugyeom. I even considered not telling him but I can't lie to him.