sleeping partners.

SURREAL

"date me." jungkook asks.

"n-no."

"no?" jungkook questions.

"no. um no." taehyung mumbles, pushing his fringe out of his eyes, "this is just so," taehyung laughs softly, "random."

he hopes his laughter disguises his nervousness.

"it's just so quick and i-i, i don't know." taehyung laughs quietly, hiding the fact that he was brimming with emotion.

he clears his throat and cuts off the nervous chuckles,
"jungkook, i don't know. i don't know how dating will go between us. what if it gets messy again." taehyung whispers lowly, sitting up in bed to look at jungkook.

"it won't be 'messy'."

"how do you know that? i don't want things to go wrong again. i don't want to feel crap again.." taehyung trails off, fiddling with his hands and turning away from jungkook, letting his feet hit the floor as if he was about to leave.
he hears jungkook shift into a sitting position behind him.

taehyung can feel jungkook resting his forehead against the back of his neck
"it might be nice." jungkook murmurs against his skin, his breath fanning over his skin. taehyung shivers.

just a year and a few months ago, jungkook would have recoiled from taehyung if he had tried hugging jungkook from the back. he sighs.

"just try once, if you don't like it we'll stop." jungkook compromises, wrapping arms around taehyung again. taehyung wants to cry at the feeling of having protective hands curl around him.

he gulps.

what if this whole thing goes messy?

what if i end up wallowing in self pity and depression again?

what if he rejects me once more?

would he be labelled as my boyfriend? oh wow, 16 year old taehyung would be so happy right now.

but you're not 16 again right now.
how do you feel about jungkook now? do you wanna date him?
taehyung lets out a deep breath.

yeah.

yeah, i do want him to date me.
yeah, i wanna be his boyfriend, his closest friend as well.

but is this really gonna work out?

"no, sorry." taehyung whispers hesitantly. his hands turn into fists, he clenches his fingers tightly together.
"i don't want to get hurt again." taehyung thinks back to how depressed he had felt when jungkook had rejected him and left.
now here he was, asking to date him and taehyung being the one to reject this time. it was all so surreal to taehyung.

jungkook doesn't say anything for a while, but he's still nuzzling taehyung's neck.
he finally speaks.

"im gonna keep bugging you to date me until you agree." jungkook chuckles softly, "im serious." he adds when taehyung doesn't reply.
taehyung's too overwhelmed at what jungkook had just said, butterflies exploding in his stomach and swooping crazily around with joy.

taehyung suddenly remembers hoseok.
oh crap, what if he wakes and doesn't see me there?
oh my god, i completely forgot about the test tomorrow - ive got to sleep if I don't wanna fail, holy shit

"okay. do whatever you want but ive got to go now and sleep - i have an important test in the morning." taehyung gushes, standing up and detaching jungkook off of him. he quickly slides into his purple flip flops and rushes to the door.

"wait, where are you going?" jungkook calls after him, still sitting cross legged on his bed.

"hoseok's. remember me mentioning hoseok - my childhood friend who I watched the stars with? you know?? well, i sleep at his now." taehyung hurriedly explains, opening the door so he could run down to hoseok's room.

"wai-" he closes the door behind him. he ignores everything - the thought of him sleeping through his test the next morning, is the only thing occupying his mind.

well, he tells himself that he ran out of the room because of the test but was it really because of hoseok and the test?
no, it's because you don't know how to act around jungkook. you left because you were unsure about him.

who wouldn't be unsure? one minute [more like one year] he's 'no homo' and the next he's pulling you into his bed and giving warm cuddles and telling you that he wants to be yours.

confusing.

he leaves the room and starts to walk down the corridor of the boys dormitory, not noticing jungkook's frown at the mention of sleeping at hoseok's.

he tiptoes down the corridor, reaching room 61: hoseok's room, and walks in.

jungkook focus
hoseok? his childhood friend?

don't sleep with this hoseok guy - stay with me, jungkook wants to call out.

he didn't even let me ask him to sleep with me.