Courage, Dear Heart (Liskook ff)

(24) What to do?

LISA's POV

Whatever I saw hours ago still lingers in my head.  I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember.

But I really want to thank Taehyung for being my crying shoulder that time. I didn't expect him to be the first one who will see me like a crying crazy baby. He never asked me what's the reason behind my tears, he just comforted me. I did appreciate him giving me a lift today.

It's already 1:03 in the morning, and here I am, having a hard time to fall asleep for I can't stop thinking about them. About him. I really want to focus my mind on some other things.

And that's when I hit an idea.

"Both are worse. Buy maybe trying and focusing in an audition is better than thinking and enduring the pain because of them"

So I decided to get the form in my bag. I have this because I secretly took it yesterday on their bulletin board. I filled up every information and read their guidelines. So they prefer a new composed song.

I turned to my study table and fished out my writing journal. I figured out if they wanted something new, I have a poem that I just had written few weeks ago and I will make it into a song. That is something personal and the closest solution I would ever get to compose one.

The poem I wrote, that was me. It showed my feelings. I'm tired of everything and that everything includes him. But still, I want him to know the words that I never said to him.

He may not hear this song but at least I will have the guts to release it from myself. I think I had enough.

*THE NEXT DAY

I'm all alone here in the school canteen. I can't even eat my food, I'm just playing it with my fork. Eating alone sucks.

Then suddenly, someone put a tray on my table. He sat beside the seat in front me and he started to eat his food. An act that is very unusual for him to do in this school.

"Tables are all full." he said.

I'm still in shocked because I didn't expect this to happen. Then I remembered what happened yesterday. What if Tzuyu sees us? What will the other students say to me, eating with a guy who already has a girlfriend?

I was about to stand up when he speaks again,

"Just stay Lisa. And eat your food"

I know I have to leave this table but I still did what he had told me. I looked back down to my food. No words coming from the both of us. But I could feel his eyes on me for a long after that.

"She's here" Jungkook said.

At first, I don't know what he's talking about. But then someone calls me out.

"Lisa" Jennie going to our direction.

Jungkook started to clean his unfinished food and he's about to stand up.

"You didn't finish your food yet" I managed to talk to him.

"You have now an accompany" he said. I'ms till confused. What is he trying to say?

"You hate eating alone. It makes you sad" after he said that, he left.

Jungkook, why are you good at doing and telling me things that drive me crazy?