NF 2 [COMPLETED]

Sunday, November 20 2016

There's so much to tell ya.

Let's start things first!

Lil 🇲🇽 being that his my play brother now it's like we play more, talk more. TBH I think we are getting closer than I thought as in avoid. I honestly think he has a thing for me.

Dee keeps messing with and I think I might have a crush on him. Damn idk. But a few days ago we were play fighting and he grabbed my two hands and pushed me towards the wall a little bit. I'm not gon lie I probably was blushing. But there's all these other girls in his face. I hope I'll leave him alone cause I can't risk my heart broken.

J**h
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What can I say about him that I haven't already told you?

Well ...

I think the feelings are back this time. I mean I think about him a lot now. I guess I'm still holding on to whatever bring this upon us. But I'm scared! I'm scared to think he doesn't like me. I'm scared to think he will change up once I like him again. Mann I think I'll leave him alone too.

Well here's go the part that's really messed up.

It all started on my friend's snapchat when I saw this cute boy (nickname is Dari) on it telling to add him. Knowing me I was gon end up adding everyone so I added him. A few days past and then I decided to snap him saying hey. Then he actually replied. ((Greg😡.)) Anyways! We began talking and having fun. He actually said I was funny. But shortly I ended it tryna be polite. And he responded saying see you later. Intending we were gonna talk again. But a day later we haven't text. I decide to do background research on him to know what's up. So I asked my friend did she like him or go out with him. And then she tells me what I don't wanna hear!!! She said she liked him! I was like damn! No!! She said it's coo if I like him. I said no like come on we're friends and I know girl code. But damn he's so fine and usually boys like him feel intimidated by me! Damn there goes my chance.

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But even though I said no that I wouldn't like him because of girl code. But I lied! I couldn't stop watching his snaps. Damn! I wanted him. Look at me. There I am crushing hard on yet another boy who don't go with me!

... Then the most fucked up thing happened! He showed his ig on snapchat. My anxiety grew in me so I searched him up on Instagram. I was amazed on all his cute pictures. Until I read the f*cking comments!! Almost everyone I knew was there! Talking bout" ___ you fine 😍😍", 😏😍, 💍💍, and all kinda shit! Like damn! A girl can't even talk to a boy without finding some out! Like this boy went to my middle school. He know my ex - best-friend.

As I think about it. It all was a coincidence. I think God don't want me with him but it's hard cause I may have a crush on him!

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