NF 2 [COMPLETED]

Wednsday, February 8 2017

Bro this full moon kicking my ass! Why?

I seen Corey again. In my head, I wonder if he knew I'm the one who kept calling and texting him. So yea. I'm walking towards him, thinking we were cool. But Nahh I was wrong. He tried his best to ignore me.

But in a matter of a hour he eventually made conversations with me. Most of them consisted him talking about his girlfriend. She was beautiful, pretty, yet just amazing. I couldn't believe my biggest nightmare was born. He kept saying beautiful things about her. Everything I was opposite to. I hated the feeling I received. In all my life I felt all kinds of things, but I never felt jealousy and broken (this much). I even thought about regrets. But this wasn't it. Little did I know there was more to come.

It settled for a while, but then he kept tryna be by me. Like he wanted me to feel hurt, but I already did.

Later on. He was on FaceTime with his girlfriend. We were talking and I kept disagreeing with him. We kept yelling and shidd, and one thing led to another. The whole truth was spilled. He humiliated me. He knew, I knew. He said I was desperate, and a stalker for doing that shidd. (Mystery texted). Damn he even said this that shidd why we not together. There it was my fucking closure. But damn it hurted. He even said my own friend told him this shidd. Damn what a fucked up day that was.

But the big thing was he humiliated me. Not just alone but in front of one of my friends but his own girlfriend as well. I was so fucking embarrassed. See this why I made my promise to myself. To be single, this is why.

I fucked up. Hell I was fucked up. Me and my fucked up feelings. He gets to go home and just talk to his girlfriend about this shidd. While she calls me all kinda shidd behind my back. This that shidd.

But I go home to myself. Lonely stuck in my room to deal with this shidd. Just hearing all my thoughts.

Bitch, where is my happy ending.

There I am got to sacrifice my well being and my feelings, because that's the right thing to do.

Fuck! I'm hurting. I want happiness. I want revenge. I want love.

I don't want pain.

Damn I should've never got myself in this shidd.

FUCK!