New Beginnings

Chapter 62

Thanksgiving-
Where has time gone? It feels like I was just here yesterday. The cooking is done, house is clean and the baby is asleep. What to do. I don't think I've ever had any quiet time since the baby was born. Have I? I'm always doing something. Now I'm sitting in my kitchen chair and staring off into space. The kids haven't arrived yet. Probably because it's only 10. Kathy and Sarah are coming. They'll be first, their always early, but Sarah is always the last to go. I have an amazing family. My family and friends are my everything. I wouldn't have made it through what I have without them. I'm quickly ripped out of my thoughts to Danny walking in the room. He comes to me and I offer my cheek to him.
"Morning."
"Good morning." He makes himself a cup of coffee and sits in the chair closest to me. I hope Meryl doesn't show up.
"Something wrong?" He says as he sips on his coffee.
"I'm fine." I smile. The truth is I'm not fine. I'm depressed, been that way. I just feel like everything isn't okay. Like I'm gonna wake up one morning and him be with Meryl. I love him so much. I couldn't live with that. I think I would die. Maybe it isn't depression, maybe it's worry. I need to stop, its begun to affect my blood pressure.
"No your not."
"Wanna know the truth?" Here goes nothing...
"Yes."
"I'm scared you're gonna leave. I don't wanna wake up one morning you not be here." I tear up. He gets up and comes to me and lays his head on my lap. I'm sobbing. Thinking about it kills me.
"Baby, shhh, I'd never be dumb enough to hurt you again." I wipe my tears, shakily.
"I don't want to loose you. I don't think I could go on if you left."
"Baby you're getting over worked up. I love you and you only." He assures me.
He gets up and hugs me and kisses me.
"I love you Danny, more than you'll ever know."
"Babydoll, you're my world." He hugs me tightly. I melt in his arms. He smells so damn good. I could live in his arms. So inviting and warm.
"Come on lets go get you bathed." He picks me up and takes me upstairs. He draws me a bath with candles and bubbles. I undress and he smiles.
"You want me to bathe you or leave?"
I hand him the loofa. He puts soap on the loofa and washes my body and my hair. When finished,he helps me out of the tub and wraps me in a towel. I kiss him and dry off. My walk in closet isn't big enough anymore. I gotta go through it. I pick out a tight black dress and stockings. The doorbell rings. Alright lets get Thanksgiving over with.