New Beginnings

Chapter 56

~July 6~
I say our goodbyes and I pack our stuff and put Zay in his seat. I set Zay and I's stuff in the van. I put Zay in the car and turn on the A/c. Danny comes out and puts his stuff in the car.
**~7pm~
I sigh and lay on the couch. I'm exhausted. Danny brings Zay in and he's screaming. This is gonna be one of those days. I grab the baby from Danny and start walking around and bouncing him. Nothing's consoling him. I go upstairs and rock him in my rocking chair and I attempt to nurse him but he refuses. He won't take his binky. This is gonna be a long night. I put him on my knees and bounce him, rubbing his back. He's so small he fits on my knees. He starts to calm down and fall asleep. I sigh and pick him up and gently put him in the crib. Danny comes up the stairs and goes to open his mouth.
"Shut up I will murder you if you wake up the baby." I yell/whisper. He puts his hands up and keeps walking.
*Midnight*
I wake up to the baby screaming and I groan. I push Danny's arm off of me and sit up. I walk down the hall and go into his room and pick him up. I start rocking him and trying to console him. Nothing. I hold him out away from me and support his head. I look at him and start to cry too.
"I can't do this Zay!" I say sobbing. He stops crying and looks at me. He starts drooling and looks like he's gonna say something. He so cute. I stop crying and bring him back close to me. I wonder if he's hungry. I pull my boob out of my bra and try to put my nipple in his mouth. He latches on and sucks like he hasn't eaten in days. I lightly bounce him and sing while he eats. I decide he should sleep with me, so I go to the closet and grab add on baby bed and put him in it when I go to the room. He cries when I set him down, So I grab his hand. And he starts to fall asleep. I smile and lay down and hold his hand. I drift off to a peaceful sleep