we don't talk anymore

bye best friend.

this is honestly just a random chapter that has tyler going crazy. it's a memory, since i haven't written one in a little while. anyways, enjoy!

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"josh don't walk out that door."

"tyler-"

"you-you can't just leave me alone. you can't. that's not what best friends do." i beg, my voice shaking.

"i'm not your best friend." and once the words leave his mouth, he slams the door shut behind him as he walks out. out of my room, my house, my life.

i fall to the floor and let out a quiet "oh my god" and cover my mouth with shaky hands. i try to stifle my sobs, but it doesn't work.

see, josh would usually be here comfort me. he would whisper sweet nothings and try to calm me down while i cried. he'd hold me and tell me all about the good things in life and the things he loves about me, our good memories and good adventures yet to come.

"we're going to go around the world! together!"

"we're gonna get a big mansion and only eat junkfood once we grow up."

"we'll make music together, and become famous and inspire people!"

"we'll be best friends."

but see, that will never happen. he's gone. and i'll never get him back.

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i look at my reflection in the mirror, the face staring back at me. i have dark circles under my bloodshot eyes. my hair desperately needs to be trimmed, as it sticks up in places it shouldn't. my lips are chapped and my skin is pale.

"no wonder josh left you." a nasty voice spits at me. i sigh and pick up a shaver, and run it across the center of my head. there's a big stripe, showing my scalp and then my dark hair that hasn't been washed in days. i continue shaving my head. hair falls all around me, resting on my shoulders and all around my feet i sigh and clean up the mess i made.

one of the few messes i'm capable of cleaning up.

i stare at my reflection in the mirror, but everything is blurry. all colors mix together as my eyes cloud up. i rub them, just irritating them more. tears fall down to my cheeks, i wipe them away, furious.

"fuck."

i rapidly blink my eyes, my hazy vision starting to clear. i see myself, my hair is a mess and i definitely missed a few spots. i run my hand across the top of my head, and laugh. i laugh at the sight in front of me, i laugh at the events that happened this week, i laugh at how josh left. and i pretend none of jt was real.

i walk out of the bathroom and out the front door, my mother just looks at me with wide eyes and lets out a sigh, telling me to be safe. but i know she doesn't care. my sister walks past me and stifles a laugh. i continue walking, not sure as to where i'm going.

my teeth start to chatter, and goosebumps rise on my skin. i blow on my hands, and rub them together.

"dumb ass, you should've grabbed a coat. and your phone."

i sigh and run my numb hands over my face. i dig into my pockets, looking for any extra money. i find $3 and an eraser. i walk a few more blocks down the same road and walk into a convenience store. i buy a bag of chips and pay for it, throwing the exact change on the counter and walking outside.

i'm not sure where i'm going, or what i'm doing. i think i'm going insane. i hear incoherent whispers in the back of my head, and i constantly turn around, thinking it's just a group of friends walking behind me and talking. but no one is there.

i can't feel my dry hands, and my nose runs. my ears hurt and my eyes water. i let out a sigh, and look around for street signs. but the sky is so dark i can't see, and just a single street light that barely lights the road doesn't help.

i turn around and decide to walk straight, since that's all i did to get to where i am. i see a familiar house with white paint chipping at the sides, and closed windows with the blinds left open, letting out dim rays of light.

i frown, and sprint past. i make it to my house, out of breath and freezing. my mom hugs me and i hug her back, feeling bad if i did otherwise.

i pull away from her a few moments later and walk up to my room, falling onto my bed, and sobbing.

A/N: WOAH TWO CHAPTERS IN ONE DAY?? WHO AM I?? no but i hope you enjoyed this random chapter and if you have the time pleasepleaseplease check out my new fic!! its joshler and called loving someone and i have been working really hard on it:) anyways, have a great day!