Black Bride (Sesul)

FONDLY

" Jinri is in the hospital."

As soon as that message came to him, he pushed all away and rushed towards the hospital. At that time, he was decorating the up floor for his mother and himself. But as the message came, he couldn't help but to show his true self.

Sehun entered the hospital in the rash way without caring about how much people shouting and cursing for his careless behaviors. He bumped on many people but his mind was not right inside him, in other words, he wasn't himself at that time.

His steps stopped in front of the room with the name tag ' Choi Jinri '. Without thinking first, his hand reached the handle. But something in his mind stopped him to go further. Sehun stopped as his eyes reached to the pale girl through the small glass window at the door. Jinri was crying, sitting on the bed. As far as he saw, no one was around her and she was alone in the room.

The grip on the handle loosened at the sight of her tears. He knew she needed him the most but sadly, he couldn't go to her. Because it would hurt her more. Parting from each other without making any memories again was good for both of them. The more she saw him, the more she would miss him when she would leave.

He placed his palm on the door stroking her hair from outside, consoling her to stop crying. But Jinri seemed so broken.

The girl was paler than her white skin and weary as if she could fall down with the wind. The cheeks he used to peck were filled with tears. The lips he used to kiss were turned into purple. The hands he used to hold were shaking. And his heart was so broken into tiny pieces as if it's brittle.

" Sehun?", he turned to look at the voice which just called his name. As she saw his tears on his cheeks, she realized that the boy was also suffering as much as her daughter.

•••••

Jinri's Mom handed him a can of ice coffee while he was sitting at the bench lifelessly. Sehun took it with a slight bow from the elder. Then she took the seat beside the young man.

" What happened to Jinri?", he asked without looking at her, and his voice was weak obviously for a man.

Mrs. Choi sighed, " It was just because she is weak. That's why she collapsed.. Jinri skipped almost all the meals and she was drunk every night, then ended her nights with the tears only..", she then answered.

He couldn't help but to feel guilty after hearing that. It was obviously because of him, he was the reason of her breaking. " I'm sorry..", he said after a few silence that made the elder looked at him.

" We all know that it's not your fault..", she said.

" All will be okay if she leaves this country.. She would forget me easily.. because I didn't make any good memories in her life..", he said.

" Sehun.. Jinri had experienced of love only with you.. And I bet she just want to love.. She sure doesn't want to deal with the bad consequences of loving of someone.", she paused for a moment and looked at the young man. Then she continued, " Do you have to do this? No matter what, you didn't even accept Mom's help. Then I really don't understand why Jinri has to suffer like this just because of you.".

Sehun tightened the grip on the can. " I didn't break our marriage because of me. It was because of her. I want Jinri to be happy while enjoying her life with the things she wants. I can't stop her to leave for study just because I love her..", he answered.

" Sehun, listen to me.. Do you think she would be happy there leaving you here?", she asked that made him mute.

But he tried to talk back to answer, " She might not be happy at the start.. But she would use--.".