I Hate You, Don't Leave Me (Harry Styles FanFic)

Whiplash

 When I finally reach the exit I don't see her anywhere. I inhale the cold air trying to calm down as I spot Nat across the street. "Nat!" I begin to run across but a hand grabs my arm pulling me back on to the side walk.

"Let her go you've done enough damage." Harry says staring down at me with his emerald eyes.

"Oh I may have, but not nearly as much damage as you have." I say spitting the words out at him. 

His eyes darken and his hand tightens around my arm. "Enough with this. What I did was awful and I know I don't deserve the forgiveness I've received from Nat but you don't have to remind me of the terrible thing I did every time I'm with you, I get that enough whenever I see Nat. But what happened tonight wasn't out of a guilty conscious, I was helping my friend. I've respected you Kendall even with all this shit you've given me but this was too far."

I stand there petrified never having seen Harry angry and disappointed before, and at me. We've never had a real conversation and with this being our first, a small part of me hopes this won't be our last.

"Harry I'm sorry!" I say my voice cracking. He lets go of my arm and starts to walk in the direction of where Nat went.

"I'm not the one you need to be apologizing to." With that he's gone down the dark streets. 

I stand there shivering until the rest of the boys come out.  Louis comes up and wraps his arms around me for a quick squeeze. "Come on let’s get you home." He starts to walk me in the direction of the limo until someone speaks.

 "Actually I'd like to take her home." Zayn steps forward hand extended. "You guys take the limo, Kendall and I can call a cab."

Uncertainty crosses Louis face. "Ok. Night Kendall. Night Zayn." 

Louis, Liam, as Niall leaves me on the sidewalk with Zayn feet away.

I walk next to him a bit wary of his presence. "I'm not going to yell at you about what happened in there, I think you got enough of that from Harry." Zayn says as he heads down the walk. I stand there flustered and then catch up with him.

"If you are coming on tour with us you’re going to need allies, because if you continue with what happened tonight you’re out for sure, and I know how much this would mean to you if you get in. But you can't go around pissing people off especially 1/5 of One Direction."

 I nod in response and he continues. "And if the fans see you guys bicker you're a dead man. I'm not saying you have to be overly nice to Harry or anything but just respect the man and not slander him all the time."

I nod again understanding my future career is unfortunately in the hands of the man I don't like and now doesn't like me. "Now come on let’s get you home its freezing." Zayn says hailing a cab.

-

The cab drops me off first as I head up my steps I give him a small wave goodbye which is replicated. I pull my key out and unlock Nat and my flat. I come in with the lights off as I lock the door behind me and throw my keys in the bowl in the hall. I slowly slide down the door waiting for tears to come but none do.

I feel hollow and drained from tonight. Harry can't really hate me right? I think. Well I've openly hated him for all I've known him it'd be only fair... But I won't be able to handle it. I know a piece of me still loved Harry from the old days, that's why I was feeling such remorse. I take my pumps off and slowly get to my feet again walking into the kitchen and that's when I see a note on the counter. It's from Nat.

'Kendall,

You and I both know that I'm not mad at you but I still need the night to myself. Look, tonight you have the flat to yourself because you need sleep tonight. Anyway I'm staying with a friend so I'll be fine. Oh and be up and ready by 12 you have a meeting with Syco Records.