"OLIVIAA! Hiii!!" Maria yelled.
"Oh, hi!" I replied.
"Thank God you listened now. I was getting tired of you staring in the distance and not paying attention to me."
"I'm so sorry."
According to Maria, I also ignored three other kids who greeted me today, which is very unlike me.
I'm probably the most social person of our high school. People describe me as the 'nice Regina George'. I'm popular, I get good grades, teachers and students like me, there are people besides my mom who think I'm pretty, I should have my life under control, but I don't. That's the thing about love, it fucks you up.
I haven't told anyone about my crush on Xander. Maybe because I don't have any real friends. Or maybe because popular girls like me don't fall for the guy that everyone picks on, I know that sounds extremely biased, but ughh. I just hate myself.
But I just can't stop loving him.
I see Xander. He's smiling. He looks so cute with those dimples forming on his cheeks, ahhh! Can he please be mine already?
I imagine 'us' a lot. Far too much since we don't have any chance of us ending up together. He won't like me, I'm probably not his type. I'm not anyone's type. And people who do say they love me, they only want something out of me, after that, they're done. People leave.
Just as I'm thinking about this, I see Jane coming my way. Xander is just a few blocks away. They bump into each other. Jane is blushing. Xander is smiling. And I am dying.
I hear their conversation.
"Today, 5 o' clock, the park near the river, yeah?"
"Yeah."
I am so going to be there too. As nice as Jane is, I can't stand her with Xander. My Xander.
