i'm addicted to you ⇨ jian

chapter nine

kian's pov

I know I have feelings for Jc. Because every time I see him I get butterflies in my stomach and I just think of his sweet tasting lips. I don't know how he feels toward me, he keeps kissing me so I guess that's a sign, but would if this is one big joke? We hadn't really talked since the last time he kissed me, but I felt like we should talk about it.

"Hey Jc?" I asked knocking on his door. There was no answer so I pushed the door open hoping to find him sitting at his desk, then turning around to see his big beautiful smile. But when I opened his door, he wasn't in there. He probably just went out to clear his mind, maybe I should do the same. So I headed to San Clemente so visit my family, my little sister always gave good advice, and I really needed it.

I was in my car stuck in traffic barely moving, when Meredith called, shit, I completely forgot I had girlfriend because of my overwhelming feelings for Jc. I decided I would ignore the call, it was the best thing to do until I figured out my feelings toward Jc, and my sexuality for that matter.

I arrived and Izzy was waiting for me because I had texted her I was coming home. "What's wrong?" She immediately questioned. I had told her that I had to talk to her about something, but as soon as she asked questions I got a funny feeling in my stomach, was I really ready to tell her? "I-I-I don't know what's wrong with me" I stuttered. "What do you mean?" She asked confused. I lead her to the couch and we sat down. "Is anyone else around?" I asked worried if the rest of my family was going to hear what I was about to say. "Mom and Tab are sleeping upstairs, but other than them, no" she replied getting really impatient. It was pretty late at night. "How do I say this?" I started, sucking in a long breath. "Well, I don't know if I'm gay but, I think I have a crush on Jc." Her mouth dropped. She couldn't say anything. "But, he's the only guy I've ever liked, I-I just don't know what to do" I choked, tears starting to run down my cheeks. "Oh Kian...." Izzy said before pulling me into a tight hug. "I'm scared Izzy" I sobbed into her chest. "I know, I know" she said stroking my hair.

It was the next morning and I woke up in Izzy's bed to my mom and older sister questioning when I got there. Izzy and I talked about the situation the previous night, and decided I was going to tell my mother and older sister the next day, and I was scared. I had come to the conclusion that I might have been bisexual, but even then it seemed I only had these feelings toward Jc. So that's what I was going to tell the rest of my family, the deserved to know.

"When did he get here?" I heard my mom question. "Last night" Izzy replied, I slowly sat up to show them I was awake and fully aware of their words. "Oh, hi Kian, sweety." My mother greeted me. I looked at Izzy realizing what I had to tell my family today, I then became fully awake. Izzy nodded her head, I may has well just get it over with anyways.

"Tab, can you uh, come over here aswell?" I asked, she came and sat down next to me, both of the expressions on their faces looked worried. "It's uh, kinda hard to explain" I laughed, I could see now I was really confusing them. "What is it?" My mother asked, I was reciting in my head what to say and tears started filling my eyes, as soon as I started to talk they poured out. I had explained to them how I developed feelings toward a guy and they questioned if I was gay. "No, it's just one guy, I'm not attracted to any other boy" I explained. "So I don't really know what I am" I said indicating my sexuality. "Also, that guy is Jc" I finished, the look on my mother's face worried me. It didn't look mad, but she sure as hell didn't look to happy.