The Mafia's Lover

Chapter 19

ALANNAH'S POV

White.

That's all I saw when I opened my eyes. I eased up a bit and looked around. The room looked like a hospital room, it was a hospital room, but how did I get here? Last thing I remembered was crying myself to sleep in my room.

A nurse walked in and finally explained to me what happened.

I had an attack close to a heart attack. I knew I suffered from Angina, but I never really had attacks that often or that serious.

After the nurse took out the needles from I body, she left. I was finally was able to move abit more and get comfortable.

I looked up at the ceiling and felt a wave of emptiness come over me.

My eyes burned from the tears that were rapidly building up in my eyes.

I started to breathe faster and taking in more breathes of air, trying to calm myself down.

I heard the door knob turned and turned to my side facing away from the door in attempt to hide my face.

I heard shuffling inside the room the door close.

I then heard a chair being pulled to the bed and a hand on my shoulder.

"Hey." Zan's voice echoed through the quiet room.

I squeezed my eyes shut, forcing the tears not to come out.

"I'm sorry." I heard Zan whisper.

He thinks this is his fault?

I slowly turned around and looked at him.

"You look like shit." I whispered,

"Hahaha, I look like shit? You should see yourself." Zan said, hugging me.

"Hahahaha... How on earth did I get here?" I asked,

"Long story short, I walked into your to check on you and you weren't breathing and your pulse was weak." Zan explained,

"Oh." I said, laying back down.

"Hey, don't worry, the doctor said that everything's fine." He said, squeezing my hand.

"Ok, since the doctor said you're ok, then that means... MY BABY!!!" Connor said jumping on top of me and kissing me everywhere.

"Eh, what the hell." Reid said jumping on top of Connor.

"Me too!" Adam yelled,

"Me three!!" Erin also yelled,

"Get your asses off my sister!!" KK yelled and jumped onto the bed.

We squirmed around on the hospital bed and threw Connor, Adam, and Reid off.

The rest of the guys got off the bed and hugged me then stepped aside so the rest could hug me.

Marilyn, Joshua, and Everett hugged me then left. Jay patted my head and also left with Connor, Adam, Reid, KK, and Erin. And finally Zan hugged and kissed my forehead then left.

I looked up and saw... GABRIEL.

"Ok, before you scream, I came to apologies for what happened in umm, Italy." He said and patted my shoulder.

"I-I thought Xavier killed you?" I said confused,

"Uh, well that's he going to explain to you... Bye." He said then left.

Xavier slowly walked up next to me and sat down on the chair that Zan sat on a while ago.

"Hmm." He sighed and slowly and cautiously took my hand.

"I'm sorry." He said his voice wavering abit and kissed my hand.

"I-I didn't mean to leave you like that, it's... I'll tell you everything." He said, nodding to himself.

"Ok... then talk." I said, looking at him.

"Gabriel, well he's umm, my best friend since we were like five."

"But didn't he umm, try to rape me and kill you." I said confused,

"Yeah, he has some medical problems and he really wanted the nuclear bombs and he was in a mental institution and he was let out and he kinda went on a rampage that involved us." He explained,

"That doesn't explain why you left me like that." I grumbled,

"I was supposed to kill him, but I just couldn't so I sneaked him out and got him a room in a motel and he texted me to discuss the plan... I left so that when this was all over, we could be together with no disruptions or any problems." He said getting up and sitting on the edge of the bed and laid his forehead on mine.

I closed my eyes and took deep breathes. I felt him graze his lips against mine.

"I love you." He whispered,

I stayed quiet for a moment. I love him, I know I do, but with everything being so complicated and the secrets.

I stayed quiet not saying a word and just looked ahead.

My eyes burned from the tears that were threatening to come out. I know I have to tell him, I just have to.

I slowly turned my head and took a deep breath.

"Xavier, I..."