Don't Say... I Love You

Chapter 18

Later that day I told Jake the news before class.

"That's great Leslie", he said smiling.

He lifted me up in a hug. I melted into it. It felt right. We went to class after that. He smelled so damn good. I started practice immediately and it took up most of my time. A bit of time and games passed by. It had been quite a while since I've hung out with Jake and my friends but I missed Jake in a way that was almost desperately.

When I played basketball I forgot everyone was there and I breathed and lived it. After the games was when I noticed Jake's absence. Today was another game. We had won when I shot the last basket. My friends and family congratulated me afterwards.

"Uh Les?" Cassy said.

"What?" I said as my parents were distracted.

"Someone came to see you and wants to take you out to celebrate", she said with a glint in her blue eyes.

"Who?"

Jake squeezed through the other people with a huge smile on his face. My heart began to beat faster than when I was playing.

"Hey winner", he said.

His stormy ocean blue eyes glittered in what I would describe as happiness.

"Hey Jake", I almost breathed.

"Uh..."

I looked at my friends and family.

"No", my dad said.

I bit my lip in worry as Janice, Cassy, and my mom convinced my dad. He sighed in defeat and shooed us away.

"Don't worry sir. I'll take care of her", Jake said politely.

My dad just frowned and nodded. I saw that Jane and Terry didn't object for once. What was the world coming to? Before Jake could drag me out Cassy whispered in my ear.

"Be nice. He's been coming to all your games secretly".

My eyes widened and that's when I felt Jake taking me outside. As we walked I thought of why he didn't tell me. It was sweet but why didn't he tell me? It's better if I don't ask. I might not like the answer.

"Where are we going Jake?"

"We're going to get McDonald's and go to the park to eat. That sound good?"

"Yep".

He gave me a dazzling smile. I smiled back. We did what he planned. We ate in a peaceful silence. We didn't need to fill it up with words. I looked around the park after I ate. It was almost empty. My eyes went back to Jake, who was intently staring at me. I raised my eyebrow. What did he want? I wasn't looking my best so that's out of the question.

"What?" I said.

His eyebrows furrowed.

"I wanted to ask you something".

" Go for it".

"Would you come over to my house for dinner?"

Shock was probably all over my face.

"Yeah, when?"

Why did he want me to meet his family?

"Can you go on Saturday?"

"I'll ask but I'm sure I can".

"Great", he said giving me another smile.

I smiled back and got up to throw away our trash.

"You don't have to throw mine away", Jake said.

"It's ok", I assured.

When I turned back to walk to where he was I didn't have to. His face was an inch or two away from mine. My eyes widened and my heart quickened its pace. It had been a while since he had kissed me. I would be lying if I said I didn't crave his lips on mine. I missed everything.

I bit my lip thinking about the kiss in the club. It had been intense and breath-taking. His eyes dropped to my lips and I happened to mimic his actions. One wouldn't hurt, right? I had told myself I wouldn't kiss him again but sometimes my will power weakened. There was no chance something good would come out of it anyways.

Before I could convince myself no his lips descended onto my lips. I let myself feel what I had been holding back. His lips gently bit mine causing a sigh to escape my lips. His tongue danced with mine gently as if I was fragile. We couldn't stop. His hands caressed my face, almost cradling it.

I couldn't help but letting my hands run on his back pressing him closer. I wanted Jake more you could or should want a friend. Our kiss turned into kisses. It was like everything was pent up need. I had never felt that before and I couldn't contain myself. When his lips connected to a sensitive spot on my neck my fingers stopped tracing his wonderful back and explored his soft hair instead meanwhile gaining another sigh from my lips.

I desired to lose myself to this pleasure but once his smooth lips touched mine again in a peck he broke away. I regained my senses. I looked up to his eyes seeing unexplainable emotions enter them. Why did he always take my breath away?

His lips were a bit swollen and his cheeks flushed. I could only imagine how I looked like. What did I want from Jake? It shouldn't be a relationship, that's for sure.

"Why do you do this to me Leslie?" he whispered staring right through me.

"What are you talking about", I softly asked.

"Forget it", he said frustrated and looked away.

I wanted to force him to answer me. Why should I? He doesn't like me like that, right? It doesn't matter. His stupid player legacy will ruin it. I stepped away from him. How many times have I regretted him getting close to me? More than I can count. Without knowing it I've slowly let him know me. The thing about Jake was that he wasn't really ugly on the inside. If he was I would have no problem in not liking him at all. As always we ignored everything and avoided the problem. We took a stroll but my mind was filled with his question and kisses. There's just something about Jake that made me weak. Maybe it was his eyes. They do say that the eyes are the windows to your soul but the sad thing is that sometimes I didn't know how to read his eyes. I tried to not glance at him. I wanted to see his expression. Could it be possible that he felt the same way that I felt? I was clueless to these things and he was a good liar when it came to feelings. He wasn't in honest opinions but with love he was the king of trickery. He's had countless girls fall for him. I don't know if it was obsession or a strong crush but those girls kissed the ground he walked on. I know I don't want to become like that. He walked with me until we got to my house.

"See ya Jake and thank you for everything".

"No problem beautiful", he said and gave me a small smile.

Jake needed to stop this game. One of us would get hurt and I'm trying to make sure that it won't be me. The next day at school during lunch Janice had a great idea.

"We should go to the beach", she suggested.

"When?" Terry asked holding Jane close to him.

"How about next week on Sunday?" Cassy said.

"That sounds good", Jane said.

We all agreed. I missed he beach. Last time I went was when I saw my favorite memory from childhood. Terry every now and then would steal a kiss from Jane. It was cute but it didn't help my lunch stay in place.

"Gross, do that some other time guys", Cassy said.

I wasn't the only one that thought so.

"Jealousy is ugly Cassy", Terry taunted.

"As if. I'm just trying not to barf", she said.

Jane grinned at them. Janice looked at me and rolled her eyes.

"You guys are like a couple of kids, grow up", Janice said in a bimbo voice.

"Yah, like seriously". I played along.

"Totes, for real", Jane added.

We smirked at Cassy and Terry who were still yelling at each other. When the bell rang we resumed going to our classes. At the end of he day I was relieved. Surprisingly Jake didn't make it awkward in the classes we had together.

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Here it is Lovelies. I'll be ending this story soon for sure so be prepared! :D