Don't Say... I Love You

Chapter 12

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For what seemed to be an hour we stayed here. I had to leave. Those sweet thoughts were starting to become regrets. He won. He got that kiss from me. Why? How could I be so stupid? I stood up and felt Jake’s eyes on me.

“I need to leave”, I said.

He stood up and looked into my eyes. He looked disappointed when he found something in my eyes. I’m just a toy so why would he care? He held my cheek and never left my eyes.

“Just so you know, I won’t count that kiss. That moment won’t be counted. Don’t worry. No one will know what happened”, Jake said.

“That’s good. It was a mistake. It should have not have happened”, I said.

“You’re right”, he said his hand leaving my cheek.

“Bye Jake”, I said.

“Bye Leslie”, he said.

I turned and left. That was what I wanted. Right? Then how come I feel regret it happened. Why did we have to kiss? I hated this feeling. He’s a player, heartbreaker, and a jerk. Being with him will only hurt me. I’m doing the right thing. I ate silently when I arrived home. My parents didn’t say anything. I think my mom had an idea what was going on. I put soft music in the room. I turned off the lights and went in my bed. I let myself be lost in my thoughts.

I wanted to get away from this. I couldn’t take it. It confused me into another world. Why did he have to be so complex? He always consumed my thoughts. I felt like a complete teenager. I don’t like it all. I drifted off into a dreamless sleep. The rest of the weekend the kiss replayed over and over in my head. Now that I think of it, Jake stole my first kiss.

Even when I said to myself I wouldn’t, I did. When I returned to school my friends were all joyful. I pretended I was. Since they knew me so well they asked what was wrong. I lied again. I felt bad about it but I can’t tell them. Telling them would make it seem truer. I felt relieved and at the same time scared when the bell rang.

The relief was escaping the questions from my friends and being scared came from seeing Jake. I didn’t doubt he would keep the kiss a secret but I knew things become awkward. I actually liked him as a friend but the crush I have for him and the kiss makes things complicated. I mean after all those things I said about not falling for him I just can’t allow us to get close like that. It would only hurt me in the end. Do I really want to be put in misery? Other might enjoy it but not me. I think he is Mr. Wrong. My Mr. Right isn’t supposed to be like him. I’m going to do whatever I can to keep it that way. I went to my class. The project thing was due in a few days. It wasn’t so bad because we practically finished everything. I found my seat. My eyes found Jake.

Our eyes connected. I want to look away but I couldn’t. I almost even felt his lips once again. I looked away. I couldn’t take it. He’s a jerk. Keep reminding yourself that. The stupid kiss was a mistake. I need to move on before the situation becomes sticky. I had to sit with my group. Bad news. After all Jake is still in it. During the period we worked on it. The worst part is that I felt his eyes on me the whole time. When the bell rang I thanked the gods. I collected my stuff and left. I felt a hand pull me back. It turned me around and left me facing Jake. His enchanting eyes searched mine.

“Hey”, he whispered.

“Hey”, I whispered too, afraid to raise my voice.

He bit his lip and seemed to be thinking.